love and wisdom....

Went to Ignite Yesterday...
Though not so fitted to the main purpose of evangelising schools...and winning over your battlefield, I went to accompany Shinerz (sans, bel, cin) who are going there...

Praise and worship session..... To my surprise....Hosanna was sung :)
It has been my fave songs...which made me quite sad that it wasn't recognized by many...
This song has inpired me to choreograph again despite my limitation...(dari taon 2007...till now belon jadi... the very rough outline is there... content is not so crystal clear yet....finishing it will not be an achievement....but an answered prayer :)

Here's what I learn again yesterday:
Have you ever been really in love ? not lush neither crush....
If you have..have you notice that if it's within your power...u want your whole world to know you are in love and you want them to know who your lover is ....
Then He is just saying....I love you...and I want my whole army of angels and heaven know I'm in deep love to you...
I'm just asking.... Love Me again with your first love please....where u just can't wait to tell the whole world....Hey...I'm in love...

Winning your fields.... is all down to one word :.... Love.....Love Him...and nothing stopping u and me :)

And thanks so much to Ko Omar's sermon...
I had realized long ago... I am far from achieving the perfect wisdom at this point of time...
And now I realize that I have not even reach the level of wisdom even of a fool....
To me salvation belongs to God...but it's everyone responsibility to yearn for it...
and if you don't yearn hard enough....like all those souls out there who fails along the way ...then it's not my business.... too bad... I cant help u much....

No wonder....
As written in the bible....only those of who has attained the Godly wisdom..that will win souls for eternity....
I have not......reach the destination......
But I can see my pitstop :)

Guide me to Your wisdom Father....
and flee me from my owns...

bombie {=^o^=}
still not even a fool....
running toward being wise.....

weaknesses

I am fine with:
1. Things I'm not supposed to know...and is not known to me
2. Things that are okay for me to know....and are known to me...
3. Things that are okay for me to know... and not known to me ...simply coz it doesn't matter even if I know or not.... it wont change the condition..that even when I finally know.. I really feel indifferrent about it...

I am not fine with:
1. Things I'm not supposed to know....and be made known to me...
2. Things that are actually okay for me to know.... but accidentally or purposely be made not known to me....coz it was thought as something that wont matter to me..when they do....
3. Things that are actually okay for me to know.... but accidentally or purposely be made not known to me....coz it's considered as something that matter to me.... when actually : it doesn't cut a big deal...

And for all holes, cut, marks, scars left by things I'm not fine with....I'm counting on so much to Your Grace......

2 Corinthians 12 : 9
For "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Above are my weaknesses....and in Your hands I lay them...

bombie {=^o^=}

okie lah

So far so good...
Things fall in place...

Next question....one last thing to settle...
should I ? ... should I not...

hm..

Bombie {=^o^=}

nyang lucu:)

Life needs Jokes...biar ga stress :)

Today, a customer called. She was trying to look for Imel..but she's out of office.
Then she remembered talking to a girl ....Imels collegue..whose name she forgot...
So she ask me...in mandarin to mention all names of Imels collegues that help her..
But she doesn't noe how to say " collegue " in mandarin..

Jadilah.....dia nanya ke orang di belakang dia......
" Eh...waktu itu nama temen sePERGURUAN-nya Imel siapa yah ? Yang bantu dia...."

Ampir aja gua meledak ketawa.....kl ga ditutup teleponnya....customer bingung kali napa gua ketawa kepingkal pingkal...

Lah orang ini Bank....kok jadi perguruan... pengsan !!! Butong pai kah kita ? *jadi ketawa lagi sekarang..*
Lumayan lah ....to wake me up after ngantuk2 post lunch period.....

Then gara gara si perguruan itu...jadi inget lagi jokes di Guangzhou...ketika kita udah kedinginan ga karuan and laper nian...

Gara2 Bonar kl ga salah... atau ieie yah ....bawa buntelan gitu...jadi keliatan kayak Kaipang...Beggar clan..

Then Bonar nyeletuk....kita kayak Kaipang yah......ini Widiya udah join neh..
dia udah kaipang satu (rambut widiya lagi dikuncir)..

Kl naik tingkat jadi kaipang dua....bulu dadanya di Kaipang...
Kl naik lagi..jadi kaipang tiga...bulu kaki...
Next level....Bulu ketek....
Lastly...... Dewa kaipang : Bulu Idungnya aja kena Kaipang....
Wow !!!!!

Emang Garink bikin idup lebih idup :)

*nyang heppie* bombie {=^o^=}

Back to new year 2008

Stelah sekian lama idup.. 26 Christmas, 26 New year, 25 Valentine...and 26 lain lainnya....
Celebracion jadi terasa biasa aja...nothing much to expect...nothing much to hope...
Jadi sperti hari hari lainnya....

At least that's how I felt when I was leaving Singapore 2007...and when I entered 2008....
I didn't get the "feel" or "mood" when I was in my holiday itself...

Tapi anehnya sampe sekarang...gua masih jetlag neh... still on superbly Holiday mood..
Dalam hal ini...gua akuin gua selalu pentium 1....telat banget in adjusting my mood :P...Jadi gua kangen orang bukan pas meluk mereka di airport....atau gua sedih or happy not on the moment...always ada spasi....

Maybe I'm still in denial kl 2008 itu udah mulai ...... hehehe.... *padahal udah balik office.....udah Dawn prayer, udah meeting, udah nari... udah sibuk lagi*.....

But yah... saatnya touch ground kembali : I'm in SG now.... bukan di Disneyland or Venetian...

My Holiday...dalam ketidaksiapan hati gua... was really a great holiday...my greatest so far considering this is my longest holiday ....and kesuksesan gua di BEIJING LU !!..Tapi jelas bukan gara gara itu doang dong..... shopping bukan segalanya.... setuju wanita2 ?

Simply said...I ask God for an eye opening trip...and I got it...in many areas of my questions....
Blessed China Lord....for above all they have blessed me so much with their fire from You...

A Bonus for this trip will be my stay in Venetian and my trip to Disneyland....If I can...if it's within my means...I wish to live in Fantasy land forever....:)...My best Christmas Eve of my life is spent in this Disneyland......with not so real Characters :P.. hahaha....26..and still so childish at heart :P...

And now : 2008:.... hm.... mo ngapain yah ?
Resolution... banyak banget neh.. besok baru difinalize yang mana yang matter for this year..

Kl bisa tunda... biar itu jadi jatah 2009 !:) I want a fulfilled resolution....Not just the same list every year....

On challenges in 2008..waduh..ramalan cuaca udah bilangin "this is gonna be a more challenging year than 07"..... and did bombie say Amen to that ? .... Lupa euy..* jawaban paling aman....lah 2007 aja empot empotan....*...

But my new platform, my new cup, my new share, my new portion.....is already sending signals....asking me for more fuels!!! Takut ? Jelas...Capek? Sering banget kali...

So.... daripada pusing2 ...My Prince told me : Jalanin aja...ga bisa ngapa ngapain juga kan ?... just walk on then.... Terus my Idol: Om Djohan tentunya....told us to: don limit God's space....get out from your box and see that you can walk out from it.....sembuh total dari kelumpuhanmu.....Then...my leader Ko Omar said:...NO COMPROMISE....

Jadi....lengkaplah sudah caranya jalanin 2008 ini:
1> Hajar saja.... masih idup ini....ga ada jalan lain bok...
2> Keluarlah dari HDBmu dan dapatkan Condo yang sudah menanti dari Bapamu
3> Usir si Lot....

ya udah.... yuk jalan :) sambil nyanyi : Ini tahun Muzizat and kesembuhan:)

bombie {=^o^=}

Leaving 2007

10.5 hours before I set foot at Macau...excited :) kind of tired too...
my first trip back to Hongkong after 14 years....and for the first time ever: my first mission trip:)
all da way till Jan 1' 08 we'll be in land of our ancestors.
leaving Singapore.....leaving 2007...

It has been....a MARVELOUS year....
Somewhere in the hecticness of all the outstanding matters in office...
5 PM December 19' 2007...I stop for a moment..
In 10 seconds...all things flashed back before my eyes....
For all that have happened...for all that may happened...
Ups and down Rocketed as far as Heaven and earth...
Roller coster of one's life truly pictured.....

almost....for a second....tears drop from my eyes....
It has really truly seriously been an AMAZING 2007....

This might be my last entry in 2007.
See you in 2008. Merry Christmas and Happy Nu Year all :)
God bless you... Jesus loves you...

He has always been AWESOMELY AMAZINGLY GREAT....hasn't He ?

bombie {=^o^=}
in thankfullness of the colors of 2007...being 26...and never been happier :)

2 random thoughts toss in a blog...salad for your soul...

1st thoughts: Ko Omar's sermong
2nd thoughts: Am I being naive ?

Thanks to Lydia for your blog entry: December 16' 07.

I was superbly sleepy during Ko Omar's sermons today, but I'm mostly awake on the right moment :P... so I am able to still catch few of his and His mesage..........Thank God for that *maap sekalee Ko...ampuni......ini pengakuan dosa namanya...hehehehe*

It is ...scary..living without a dream (Ko mar's sermon: sebuah templakan keras di pipi kiri). To say I'm not one of the person who fall in this cathegory.....will be a lie. Though they always say that they know my long term dream...I doubt they do...as I doubt I myself really know.....specifically....wad on earth am I here for? That FORTE moments.....Wad issit gonna be ? General purpose: I suppose every Christian know wad on earth are they here for....

And even scarier is : the fact that this is not something new that Ko Omar/ other pastor just speak about today. It has been discussed, from Sunday services to FA to daily bread...to anything. The Psalmist says: a man without a vision shall parish. Woo....scary ya ?

Then on prioritising God..sebuah templakan kembali ke sebelah pipi kanan. Hm.. if I fall asleep during sermon...apa ini yah contoh hidup orang yg mengutamakan Tuhan? ....hehehe... Gua yakin jawabannya ga :) lah wong lover of your life is speaking to you through your pastor...and u fall asleep..hm... so yah......no excuses for me falling asleep....I have to get up and rekindle the passion again I know :)

Nah... kl dua itu digabungin....u can say I live my life pretty gambling yah ? Ga ada mimpi...ga terlalu ngutamain Tuhan....wwwooooo.... bahaya bahaya.... Jadi disinilah saya... sadar banget sama kelemahan saya.......I'm not as perfect as what people always picture me to be... The Lord knows it... well !!.. So help me in achieving perfection okay ?...Thank you upfront...

So... wads that got to do with being naive ? That would be the story of me and my moms conversation...seperti biasa... over the phone.... and spt biasa...she's always as negative as she can be... and she questioned my choice of life...on why I'm not pursuing my carreers when opportunities is so wide opened......*especially on money making part*....on how money can help the world goes round....on how money this .. money that.... haih..ngetiknya aja capek ngomongin money...:P udah tiap hari kerja ngomongin hal ini terus :P..

It was a very normal conversation b/w me and my mom.... and forever..I stand in my point of view....on how I do not want to be driven by money...and how much I want her to see how God has blessed me throughout my entire life... and how I really want her to believe that my life...is definitely gonna be so much better than what she can expect it to be.... on God's protection..blessing...love... covering...over my life....and through it all it will be...On stopping to complain and starting to say thanks......

To her..money can buy your health... live longer....live better...
To me... life is christ...and death is a welcoming home to Father's house...

She told me....I'm naive, idelistic, and have not seen the real world out there, on how bad their views can be when they see that you don't have the "wealth"......
I may not know that much but I have come to know how cruel one's life can be .. and I choose not to be affected by how bad the world can be..for wad matters to me... is how God's view over my life....anything else..He'll take care to be in place.....

She said since you're still young.. work yourself hard to achieve a better life.. all relies on your hands and no one elses.......
I told her... my everything is not from my hardwork..not from me at all.....all are just declaration of His love....

The conversation ends with a shock on why Hady won Asian Idol....then we went back to our own TV... I pray hard the day will come... that she may understand how I view a life.....a precious life God has given us......that will be when she understand Christian faith...and the day will come.. * Yang percaya katakan AMIN !!!!!!!!!! ..AMIN BANGET!!!!*

But it is funny to me...I feel I don't really have clear pictures of my dream....that my path is pretty risky to walk on...Pretty uncertain out there.. scary yeah, for it is a really.. seriously ...cruel world out there...........But I stand so strong headed telling her how GREAT GOD has been...and how my life...in my tiny little faith..shall always be good in HIM:) I ask her... to wait and see ....

Hubungan dua hal di atas ? Dalam ketidak jelasan akan impian masa depan gua...and dalam keyakinan akan kebaikan Tuhan yang pasti membawa gua kembali dalam pangkuan kasihNya..sampai Dia benar2 terprioritaskan secara REAL in my life....I will persevere with this Faith and will keep sharing it with whomsoever I'm given a chance

And slowly I know... akan tergambar dengan sendirinya....dreams and visions of mine...not in a day... or a month..it shall be longer... but at least I know.... my dreams are His...and His are mine.....even if it's not specifically be known to me....but step by step...I'm fine enough to live my dream... one day at a time.. :)

Search me again...and seek out my heart o God......in You...our faith will never fails !!

bombie {=^o^=}

oleh2 dari Bandung

Ketika berlalu
semua rasa dalam hidupku
dan amarah yang menggebu
tertuju hanya padamu

Ketika sirna
Kerinduan yang membara dalam dada
dan pedih yang pernah tercipta
dalam semua rasa yang pernah kubina

Ketika pergi
Tinggalkan sisa puing dalam relung hati
Sisakan hanya rajutan memori
dan gulungan kisah yang kumulai sendiri

Tiada lagi
Akan pernah kusesali
Semua yang terjadi melanda diri
dalam hati yang lemah ini

Satu hal yang pasti meluap
Dari lubuk hatiku terucap
Kau Bapaku sungguhlah dasyat
Dalam penyertaanMu yang ketat
Takkan Kaubiarkan sekalipun ku tergeletak
Dalam kubangan lumpur yang sendiri kubuat

Sungguh bersamaMu pastilah kudapat
Kedamaian sejati sepanjang abad

bombie {=^O^=}
looking back....in the midst of Bandung heights....
I'm so relieved I'm free...it's all over now with thee......
and that I'm assured.....He.....always loves me

whose rain issit anyway?

It's raining today....
Perhaps it signifies the sadness of 2 of my friends
who gets their heart broken just again

who have one love so true....
waiting for just a perfect time...
yet time and time again..
walls of circumstances come in between them...

one sure get tired keep on pushing
but getting nowhere in between....
I don exactly know what they feel...
yet surely I saw tears flowin.....

I'll be hurt too..
Thus my tears flow with both of yours...
Till our tears can wipe all the pains apart..
with prayer....everythings gonna be all right...


On another part...
It might be raining cos of the happiness of another 2 of my friends..
whose celebrating a love joint
reciprocal feelings get responded
after being single for almost a decade
he finally found someone....
and I'm too happy to hear it till I cry yet another time....

Which tears the sky falls ? I don noe..
I'm crying for both .... perhaps it did just so....



benernya...mau ngomong banyak banget... kan daku udah diem seminggu ya?
namanya juga cewek..pasti kayak petasan meledak dong ?

but then again....... yak 100.... TIME !!!
1.01 am Dec 10

bobo...

bombie {=^o^=}

So Close

Don look at me anymore
For I am just so close
To a line of giving up my defence
and acknowledge....I'm already yours

Glance at me no more
Each drops of your sights
Zooms me to my line of boundaries
I built to stop me from falling
Freely deeply scaryly
Into your deep turqoise sea

There I'm not sure I may find
Oxygen to keep me alive
Water to wake me arise
and Flowers to make me surprised

No..this battle is not over
Still fighting here...stronger than ever
Fleeing myself from your magnet of illusions
Fact knows what kind of distractions
Your hallucination impacts to my realization

For soon it will come to pass
Where I'll be away from ur presence
Till soon comes our way
View me never another second

for I am.....so close....to that line...

FLEE !!!

*bie - elegant* {=^o^=}