so ugly

It's super duper U G L Y
argh... Don noe how to tell
don noe where to start
don even noe wad can i complain....

Ga tau deh.... running low on patience...
Lontong tolong...

I need a revenge holiday
dalam arti kata... A runaway holiday
just running from all these that's so called

U G L Y

Ada yg kurang

I really am missing couple of things in my life this year
My gist... Zest... my heartbeat...my passion.. my yearning...desire..
Dance.....
And many more...

Hm...
Apa yah ?
Ada yg kurang ajah this year..

Gonna have to find it back soon
and get back on track
right in His wonderful way

bie {=^o^=}

Selingan dan kebaikan

Last saturday gua mau bikin driving license
driving centrenya tutup jam 12.30 pm.
But.... Dsr kebiasaan gw...
Begadanglah gw tidur jam 3 am

pasang alarm ngantuk2 i thot it's 9.20
am. Yg ada gw psg pm!!!!!
Jreng2 !!! Ga bunyi dong my HP!

Tebak gw bgn jam brp ? TADAAAAA
10.45 AM...
Rush rush rush.... Mandi... Lari... Keluar rmh.. 11.30 AM.
Cari cab... 20 menit... Msh ga ada.... Mo nangisssss bgt rasanya... Pikir mo cancel en merenungi nasib idup aja...
Eh dtg satu uncle... Gw kejar dia...

Pas msk dia tanya gua mau kemana... Gw blg driving centre ubi.. Dia blg aduh ga bisa gw ke sengkang ada pick up jam 12.30.....
Aduh lemesh gua.....
Gua pun memelas blh anter ga uncle... Gw udah telat en nunggu ampir 0.5 jam plus udah meleleh bener neh body....PANASH sekaleee
eh dia akhirmya rela.... Terharu gua...

Ongkos ke ubi total 5.20...
Tp gara2 gua mau rush jg... Gw udah plan tinggalin 10 dollar en run...
When i did so... Si uncle teriak2 siao jieeee ga boleh gt... Sambil cari balikan 5 dollar en ngotot mo lempar balik duitnya ke gw...
Gw lbh gesit...

Just enjoy it uncle.... Buat ERP di expressway... En for ur kindness....
Gua BERHASIL ngeapply sim hr itu... Mendarat 12.06 !!! Selesai 12.16 pm.
HORE!!!

Then today... Fenny ketinggalan hp on the way ke tuas...
Since dia cmn bisa inget no gua... Telp gua lah dia....
Gua buru2 track hp nya... Yg angkat uncle2... Dia msh di tuas...
En dia rela nyetir sampe ke capital square to send me Fenny's phone...

Terharuuuu terharuuu gua....
Msh ada org baek di sg...
Tanpa minta imbalan pula....

On another hand...
Si Fenny ini jg Blesssssssseeeeeeddddd bener dah
hp udah brp kali ketinggalan di cab... At least bareng gua 2 x (jgn2 dia ga blh dkt2 gw... Haha)
tiap kali balik sempurna bok!!!
HPnya Fenny secakep yg punya gua rasa... Semua uncle2 rela nganterin hp dia... Hahaha

bombie {=^o^=}

* selingan
gua br liat cowok gantenggggggggg abis... --> tipe gw loh ya!!!
Tinggi gede belo rambut itemmmmm bgt
pst model seh... ampe Mulut gw ampir jatoh nganga ! badan gw jg... Gw di samping eskalator gt loh....
Untung bisa ngontrol.. Hohoho

lumayan hiburan di jumat terang

NOT a cougar

Waduh Will Kur... Gua dibilang cougar.. Or at least he think that I think I am one

CORRECTION!!! hohoho
I am NOT a cougar... Never think I am one.. And never inspired to be one..

And now... at least I'm quite relieved to know you're not that young..
So it's justified that my eyes pointed u out
Anyway... Nice knowing u...
Wish u all the best in our motherland
*hix*

Fast & furious

Fenny Lo is in town... En gua nginep di hotel brg Fenny
kan ceritanya the only last single left yg bisa temenin nginep *sorak sorai FREEDOM!!! hoho*

Kmrn ke kantor dianter dijemput mama Fenny hohoho
terus kita mo dinner neh.. Fenny msh nyante2 sebelon mandi..
Abis mandi dia nyante lagi... Sampe nanya udah jam berapa seh ? Gua bilang 7.20 Fen

dia langsung ;HAH ?!?!?!?!
Gilaaaa cepet bgt seh wkt di sg... Oh mi gud
gilaaa.. Bie... Cepet tua kalian disini... *oh yah... Thanks Fen..*

hahahahaha ngakak gua..
Singapore itu emang punya auto fast forward button Fen di tiap sisi batunya...yg ga bisa dielakkan each time we touch down
Kita kenal Jennita msh dia umur 16... Eh bentar lg udah mo 20 si minie cutie
while gua msh ngerasa as if i'm 26... Hahahaha..

Singapore.. Singapore.. 10 years I
spent (and waste) here feels just like half a blink....

nama name namo

apalah arti sebuah nama ?

Kl Gill suka banget sama nama dia....Gillian Sastra (great name indeed) contrary to her dari kecil gua sedih dih dih banget nama gua Melissa..

Tiap kali gua denger nama Christine, Catherine, Michelle....ngiriiiii banget gua .....

Gua demen nama yg tounge twisted gitu...kayak Christ... Thrine....Chelle.... gitu.. :)

Waktu gua tanya nama gua dateng dari mana..

Mama gua bilang kl itu nama dikasih Ieie gua, yg di derived dari Melissa Gilbert

Ieie gua satu hari lagi nonton Little House on the prairie

Terus yg main jadi anak tengah itu Melissa Gilbert

Ieie gua bilang : wah cakep tuh si Melissa.... namain Melissa aja...

Dan jadilah nama gua Melissa

Yg karena papa en mama gua kurang creatip en orangnya simple simple ajeh..

akte lahir gua cuman tertulis : Melissa

tok

Sampe gua protes en minta nama keluarga.

Karena gua tinggal di Sunrise garden en alamat gua di Surya Wijaya

Dikasih gua surname Surya.

Sgitu simple nya my papa & mama ...

segitu sedihnya gua :P

Sedih !!!! dih !! dih !!

That is why kl orang nanya kenapa gua dipanggil bombie

Coz I'm happy enough that I have another name other than Melissa :P

Nama yg gua bilang pasarannnnnnnnnn banget dan gua heran kl masih ada yg mau pake nama ini... kenapaaaa coba ? aih aih :P

Arief nanya kemaren, napa gua bawa nama panggilan gua yg berasal dari bomber (ini kelas 5 SD), gua bawa sampe ke Singapore en sampe sekarang...

Iyah..kl dipikir pikir udah 17 taon gua bawa nama bombie ini :)

Sometimes gua kepikiran pengen ganti nama gua jadi melissa bombie surya :)wakakakaka :)

Gua jg suka nama panggilan family gua :) Lissa :) nah yg ini gua demen deh..

kesannya akrab gitu :) when I pray, I called myself lissa :) bukan melissa, bukan bombie ...lissa :) *jgn sembarang pake abis ini yah.... this name is reserved for special needs ...hehehehe*

ga banyak orang yg salah manggil nama gua di Indo seh :P

be it melissa, bomber, bombat, bombay, bom- bre, bom - brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

all pronounced well & good

Tp semenjak gua ke singapore

Melissa ini kan di pronounce jadi Me (kayak emas) lissa instead of Me (kayak eyang) lissa

Sjk itulah kejadian client yg tiap kali gua bilang :

Melissa ..

Marissa ?

Merissa ?

Mariah ?

Malaysia ?

Even boss gua manggil gua Malaysia !!

great :P

sampe mereka decided to follow Iin and call me Mel

smua msalah selesai :) I am Mel :)

still client called me :

Marisa ? *ini plg sering*

kl gua udah capek...gua cuman bilang :

Lissa

langsung semua

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lissa :p

haih ! pengen gua ganti nama..

jadi lissabombie surya aja :)

a nickname I love the most :)

berangkat dari pengalaman ini gua decided to named my son & daughter demikian :

Brooklyn Alexander __________ (kl cowok)

Brenda / Beverly Alexandra ______________ (kl cewek )

what's ur children name ? hohohoho

bombie {=^o^=}

complex useless mind :P hehehe

benernya banyak banget yg dipikiran gua

tapi dikit banget yg keluar di blog ini

karenaa....

banyak dan secuil cuil gitu...

ga kayak satu lalu... dikit tapi padattt complex..

contoh : weddings... nasi bungkus ...... states..

udah ...mikir itu aja....

itu taon lalu

taon ini.....waduh: neh deh contohnya....

adohhh gendut....enaknya diet gimana yah ?.....

gimana caranya gua bisa beli rumah di singapore.....

udah saatnya blon beli stocks....

gimana dapet duit lebih banyak lagi...

apa yg perlu gua lakuin biar hasrat kerja lebih banyak...dan soal itu jg :dimana seh karir gua skrg ini ....

adoh papa mama & segala kehebohan berita keluarga di indo....

10 taon anniv di singapore, negara mana next ? ....

danz ministry mo dibawa kemana ini ...musical bakal dateng lagi ga yah ? ....

adoh new york, aussie apa jepang....sama siapa ? kenapa itu tiket mahal bener atuh ?

hm....pindah ? stay ??? ....bank lagi ? ato apa dong ?

horee Wynne married .... kapan giliran El yah ? ....

Dede gua jg monya kapan seh marriednya ?...

ini si cobra kapan bakalan berenti kerja dari kantor gua biar gua ga bete liat tampang cobra dia.....

napa coba lagi ini insurance agent gua maksa gua beli investment terus...sementara gua pencinta cash....

kenapaaaa....semua yg gua suka semuanya daon mudaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ aaaaaaaaa...sampe2 ada anak sekolahan...........arrrggggh....gua ga mo jadi cougarrr.......sedih sedih sedih.

yah udah May.... bentar lagi gua sa chap....hm... gimana ini ?

yah gitulah pikiran parah bombie ditumpahkan di jumat malem yg ga jelas...

parahh !!!! complex matters need not complex mind to meddle with ... tapi gua complex...

SUTRA.....good nitee :)

sedang ingin

Between bein reel and being real
Grounding facts and dreamed dreams
Standing was I, sometimes feel so shy
for time and time still lies a question why

that sweetness takes a lifetime to arrive
a gleeful taste of paradise
before battling thots with a strive
in a split second vanish like a blush

no longer how long
or whether it sounds like a broken song
played on rustic gramophone
teaching mind to be strong
hearts to hold on
body to see beyond

saw a tall wall b/w us
built on never ending length
will u still be there tomorrow
are you even there now
hanging on just like I do
or is it just me wishing for you
in a mind so fragile-ly blue

love don wither
or so they tell me to
is it so I ponder ?
I choose to trust u

bombie {=^o^=}

Family outing

The longer I stay here
The longer I thank God for blessing me with wonderful cousins all around Singapore
who have been such a blessing for me throughout the year...

I have celebrated my birthday with them 3 straight years
and never a single day regret the beautiful memories each year brings
love my cousins
love my family
love my God for loving me

Happy 29th Birthday Charles :)
our final 20th sth years
let's live it to the max !

lissa {=^o^=}

On maturity and singleness

hahahaha...I've read all the comments on my previous blog and I kept laughing.
Seriously why do all of you want to stay young so much ?

Surely, we love our tighter skin, youthfull strength & energy. But to say that I make a better decision when I was young, well.... seriously....no.

And why do I appreciate maturity ? Coz it's not easy to attain it, and it's only received by those who learnt to let go.

Let's admit this: we were once so naive when we are that young. I made lots of bad, rush decision. We thought we know everything and so ready to take the world. Well...we are not.

But that's not to blame as we have not known as much then. And that's the tough key part of being mature. Having to know too much info, been there done that seen all, yet having to keep the childlike faith, keep hoping for the best, and dreaming for dreams just to swallow another day coming by, knowing time is no longer on your side........let's admit it.....it is tough...

It's definitely not for babies and teen. This game called life can only be won by adults.
And yesh, I love to say that I'm an adult, happy to embrace my maturity (and the lines drawn on my face...) and I'm still a one person who got so so much to learn:)

So friends, the sooner we embrace this maturity, the sooner will be for us to reach our goals :)
So....no...forever 21 dont rock in my world:)



Tapi sekarang mungkin saatnya gua jadi anak kecil lagi ;) Or at least gua akuin kl gua ga pernah dewasa dalam hal ini :P
Kemaren malem di channel 5 ada acara yg namanya Singapore Talking. Topicnya: is marriage for you.

Yg nonton gua and Depot. Pertama tamanya menarik, lama2nya makin nyebelin. It seems that there's always these wrong conceptions on single woman, or singles mostly.

Which is : satu judgment yg bilang kl kita2 yg single itu kurang usaha buat jadi ga single. Gua plg ga tahan with this judgement. Apalagi kl selanjutnya dibilang kita choosey. Adoh.. seakan satu belati ga cukup, dateng dua. Bagai ditusuk didepan, en digorok dari belakang... erm...kejam yah perumpamaannya ? heheheeh :)

Mari kita bahas : kita2 kurang usaha buat dapetin pasangan. Okie, men & women being equal, coba dipikir: kl cowok demen ngejarin cewek, dibilang buaya cap kacang. Kl cewek rajin ngejarin cowok, dibilang buayi kegatelan. Kurang usaha ? Kl boleh gua tanya, apa seh usaha orang2 yg udah jadian or married sekarang, buat akhirnya dapet pasangan ? Jujur ajah deh, so far dari temen2 yg gua kenal, belon gua denger tuh yg sampe pergi ke biro jodoh, or clubbing, or ke China, or Vietnam buat cari jodoh.

Everything happen just like in other ordinary days, it's just that their times happen faster than us who are still single till now. So tell me, apa gua salah kl gua jg pengen cerita cinta gua suatu hari terjadi sebagaimana terjadinya di teman2 gua ? With faithfull prayer and wishes, coming true ? instead of gua ke Gunung Kawi minta wangsit ? Or ke China cari groom ? What is it that make us so different that we have to fight, search, pay 1000 over dollar a year ( oh yeah someone told me that's how much u pay for membership at "makan siang sebenernya" ) to get hooked on ? Our sin or what ? Was it ever wrong for me if I just wanna be another of my friends who does it the old fashion way ?

Terus, next judgement, kita choosey. Mari kita refer balik ke kasus temen2 gua. Apa waktu mereka married or cari pacar, mereka ga set certain criteria dari pendamping idaman mereka ? Gua rasa kita semua iyah makanya kita pernah end up being broken hearted or ...mungkin pernah broke ppl's heart too. I hope they can differrentiate between choosey and demanding.

Guess we have to be choosey dalam tahap pencarian kl emang kita ga mo end up with the wrong person. But we should, and ought not be demanding, before and after marriage. Ini opini pribadi gua, tapi gua tau kl alkitab jg udah set the base for us to be choosy, karena alkitab udah menganjurkan kita untuk memilih....memilih dengan yg seiman, sepadan, dan yg memang udah didoakan dan disiapkan Tuhan. Bukan ala kopi tubruk.

Tapi alkitab ga pernah bilang kl Tuhan adalah waiter yg terima order pasangan idaman. That's when we turn from selectively choosy to demandingly choosy.

Nuff said, semoga posting ini bisa menjauhkan semua prejudice yg pernah dijatuhkan dengan salah sama kita kita yg masih single. Terutama sama kita kita yg sadar dengan sangat baik on our life choices that has made us stay single till this date, and never regreting every single steps of broken hearts that we have embraced and every chance on love we have took on, and still...... please remember this... STILLL : being so happy about this beautiful single life and still keeping an open heart and mind for the answered prayer to arrive anytime.

Now try to be in our singles shoes, or at least my shoes who has never been into any relationship till date, and still keeping that amount of faith. Tell me if it's easy to do what we are doing right now. It's certainly not. But we are ....still so happy :)

Coz seriously, you don't want me to brag about the freedom and independence that we singles have. Now that's my bragging rights and...I'll keep it for now coz I do not want to ruin ppl's happy couple life :)

bombie {=^o^=}