bahagia rasanya diberkati :)

to receive unexpected kindness, isn't it the best feeling in the world ?

just like today when I'm supposed to be cleaning up my home, I woke up and ternyata bonyok Depot yg lagi dateng kesini udah bersih2 rumah.....AAAIIIHHH terharuuuu gua...

Di hari2 yg repot gini : dopeng, meeting musical, gereja lagi, latian musical, senior dancers dinner.... to receive such kindnesss....aih.. rasanya PLONK gitu...

recently I've received ALOT of kindness, dari temen2 yg ngajakin gua lunch en traktirin gua...then all the happy time having dinner date di rumah El, and today this....

aihh..thank you prennnnnzzzzzzz :)

and Lord...THANK YOU !!!

thank You ... terharuuu

july

life's gonna be different from now on

Can I handle it ? honestly ?

fun run was fun

It's official
Citibankers are superrrrr competitive

gw pengen ikut acara bank gw called fun run...but knowing my limit
so gw tanya temen gw yg organise.. Gw mo ikut..coz it's for charity.
Ada yg jalan ga ? Gw mo ikut tp jalan doang boleh ga ?

Jawabnya : I'm sure there's alot of them who walks Mel.. Just join lah
so...i decided to join

the run is today
a week ago gw udah prepare myself by buying new running shoe
but the company is so downgrading the fun runners lah...
While competitive runners were given so much rule... Guidelines...
Fun runners disuruh bawa camera en dont finish later than 8 pm
hebatnya lagi...Boss gw so into the mood of not running lo
she wear her Stuart Weissman sandals...bring Doritos.. Water.
Bring picnic mat some more

then.. Gt mereka tiup pluit.. MATENK!!!
Mana fun run... Each to each own mannn
leaving all the fren behind
haahhaahhahah

gilaaa
gw yg biasanya ga kuat lari tiba2 bisa kaya ada drive drmana gw jg ga ngerti
parah!!! Seumur umur ga ada deh gua yg namanya lari ber K K...
400 m aja dah bagus

eh dikejar 5K.. En ga ada yg slow down.. Sintinggggg
in the end gw cuman berhasil finish in 35 minutes...
Walk and run some way
and Thank God not the last person..

Walaowee
dont want to trust my colleague ready
damn competitive lahhh hahaha

BUT
i must say: I LOVE IT !!!
So..at my 30ies.. I'm happy to dare and try sth totally new
breaking boundaries...and LIVE !!!

Next thing u know I'll be on my way to a blind date
HAHAHAHAHA
u wish...

Still a no to that

haha
niwei
A GOOD DAY INDEED
thank u Father :)

this june

Juni oh Juni,

kenapa Juni taon ini kerasa gitu dull, flat, down, hopeless, colourless .... en just plain...blah ni ?!?!?!

cukup muak feelin this way for most of June.....padahal kl nurutin cycle cewek gua...harusnya beginning to mid month is happy time, terus down time, terus flood time, and go on...

yg ada before flood dah down, pas flood masih down, after flood gua MC, so udah mo naek ceritanya ...eh turun lagi...., selesai MC gua lanjut flat...

mana happiness peaknya ? Blah !!!!

en ini kebawa bawa kemana mana in my life aspect

Seumur umur gua belon pernah bisa download SYTYCD felem sendiri..

sekarang sekali giliran gua bisa download dengan baik, on time, jelas dan benar... tiap nonton gua ga berasa gimana banget... ga gigit nendang nangis or merinding...

ga bengong or teriak2 depan compie... boro2 kedorong buat gerak joget2...

napa coba ? padahal gua agree2 aja sama Nigel kl talent yg ada jago2

kl mo ngomong logic, bisa jadi gara2:

1> so far masih belon ada Nappy Tabs choreo, Stacey Tookey's choreo, Mia udah jelas2 cabut, Wade Robson jg ga tau kemana, en Adam juga udah ga judging... ilang gitu the colours of SYTYCD......

2> nothing against Mary & Nigel, loved them. Tapi judge ketiga teh sapa itu ? ga jelas gw ...

en gua jg agree sm one american comment yg bilang : Why suddenly all the routine deserves an Emmy ? They have all the hype about Travis Wall contemp for Melanie & Marko's routine kamis kemaren.. tapi pas gua nonton... napa ga gigit or nusuk kayak Hallelujah's Alex & Alison, or supaya gua ga dibilang biased sukanya sama Alex terus, kok bahkan ga segigit Collide's Lauren & Kent's routine about prom nite, yg di choreo sama Travis jg?

BTW SYTYCD fans, u should check this link... and tell me if you agree with them..

Best 25 routine of SYTYCD so far... and I ...agree

http://www.ew.com/ew/gallery/0,,20389677_20502439_20974188,00.html

Lalu :

Musical dance..

Yup..ini bulan yg cukup sepi...pada pulank semua.. en somehow kebawa ke gua jg....

somehow gua jadi hopeless banget... with the fact that lagu2nya belon ada yg jadi juga...lagu belon ada mo bikin dance apa atuh ? padahal kita cuman punya sisa 3 bulan... *merinding gua ingetnya*...

so far udah banyak banget gaya yg kepikir di otak gua.....but biar kata semua gaya udah ada di otak gua... honestly I know myself well that ga segampang itu tuangin isi otak gua ke gaya nari.....

ga nolong lagi : liatin semangat team musical yg ada, en frekuensi email / contact kita... kok jarangggg banget gitu ? I'm so lost..... maap banget neh kl jadi curcol... or maap jg kl ada anggota musical di yg baca blog ini.... I just have to be honest.... we need some fuel..kita perlu bensin & api buat bakar semangat musical kita..

aih ... kacau kucar kacir ketar ketir ati gua

terus..kebawa lagi ke hal2 lain..

I felt such a failure sampe Juni ini gua ga kurus2....yg ada muakan terus like there's no tomorrow... en aneh bener the fact that kenyataan kl dede gua bakal married December ini which demands me to look nothing less than fabulous ....itu ga macu semangat gua diet sama sekali....

en then: office :

RM yg udah lama gua support...paling lama in fact.. ( 6.75 taon) bakalan berenti soon... dia seh nyebelin attitudenya emang....cuman tetep aja artinya gua bakalan ngalemin pretty much a big change di kantor...en I absolutely have no idea what's gonna happen next....

it's like...there's just so much things go out of my control... after what I can say... a pretty good 2011 so far ...... in a month....thing's turn to be so...bleh...

en worst: I know I can do something about it..tapi asli gua ga tergerak to do something about it ---> though I know u want to say"ya salah loe sendiri".... just Don't .. It's something that I dont need right now..

AAAAA... frustasi.....*exaggerating drama mode....ikutan Jennita .. *

amidst all that... gua cuman bisa bersyukur kl gua ga sendiri di musical ini..

untung Gill masih semangat en masih lanjut full of ideas...

blessed are you Gill...jadi penopang gua en Raimond.....oheoaoah :)

gua jg bersyukur sama Depot ....housemate gua yg suka sok imut..... yg tanpa dia sadari .... udah jadi penghibur sejati gua....just with her silly comment...en her effortless presence and comfort at the right time... where I need her most....

and with June...supervisor gua di office.. yg makin hari makin terbuka sama gua....yg very much forgiving to me.... yg have done so much for me in my last 7.5 years.... she always makes my day...

with all that.... mari gua conclude Juni yg so far so bad ini with one conclusion :

"two is better than one. If one falls down, the other can lift him / her up"

I guess I need my other one...

yg notabene masih kosong besar so far..

siapa, dimana, ada atau ga aja in the first place...gua ga jelas...

I surely hope & keep my faith kl si other one ini beneran sudah ada, is living, breathing, learning, preparing & getting ready for us to meet one fine day...

boleh dong ngarep ?

kl boleh : sekalian deh gua ngarepin satu hal lagi...

cepet dateng napa ??? haih... capek banget kali nunggu sa chap years

mari sama2 kita ber experiment en buktiin kl dua itu lebih baik dari satu... a sentence yg masih mau gua buktikan kebenerannya to really know the truth

lastly : Father God... aaaaku beeerrr serahh... aaaaaku berrr serahhh.. pada Yesus...Juru slamat...aaaaaku berrr serahhhh

Your divine intervention is highly requested Lord

bombie {=^o^=}

being melissa

"Learn to be what you are

and learn to resign with good grace all that you are not"

by Henri Frederic Amiel

I'm recently hooked on a TV Series called "Being Erica"

Kiyoko Yap passed it to me last year and I only have chance to see it now

They have some moving quotes that makes me ponder... in a very peaceful way

Here's another fave quote:

" The heart wants what it wants

It forces us to act when reason dictates otherwise

It tears down walls, it breaches boundaries

And for better or worse, it leads us places that the heads, would never go"

I solely agree

another one that really felt bold out when I was watching the show:

"Thinking is easy

Acting is difficult

and to put one's thought into action

the most difficult thing in the world "

by Goethe

and in some spirit of quoting

I made my own. I dont think it's any good compared to those soothing quotes I heard from the show, but it's what I'm feeling right now.

And if there's anything I ever learnt from this show, is the quote I put on the first line:

Learn to be what you are

so here's my quote, posted them on FB :

Changes

no matter how much we're looking forward to the day it happens

like a night longs for the sun light

still heart will doubt a little

and it falls a beat when a change finally arrives

is this will be.....for the better ?

bombie {=^o^=}

something's missing.... u

seberapa senengnya gua sama SYTYCD SO8 that's just starting, I'm not as excited as last year...and I know why :

THERE IS NO ALEX WONG THIS YEAR ...

after 1 year....

gua masih sedih ..... banget banget.... for his early departure...

hix.. I want more of Alex...

it's hard when you have fallen in love to one dancer...

ga bisa pindah ke lain hati... hixx

bombie {=^o^=}

gloomy gloomy gloomy gloomy

Somebody tell me what should I do when I'm gloomy for no good reason...in fact..still investigating for any reason... And in the process of doing so... I got even gloomierrrr

ga.. Bukan pms...coz it's just over and it's suppose to be happy time now
then Why??? Why am I gloomy ?? Why should I be gloomy ?

not that all things are so perfect now.. But Life's not perfect and I know that well
so why... Am I just so.... Arghhh

better pray
and sleep it over now

& oh
adding to the irony
i just watched a ver happy musical
hakuna matata...

Sighhhhh
hakuna matata Lissa
sleep !!

u say.... ikutan ga yah gw ?

The deal :

participate in a flash mob at Ion, sometimes in July

The sacrifice :

4 times 4 hours every saturday in June @ somewhere in Yishun

Definitely missing YRC in those 4 weeks

Definitely missing life too, not to mention time, sweat energy... etc

one time on site rehearsal @ ion

one very gruelling saturday to wake up at 7 am for prac before action

a bet that I'll have my confidence beaten down participating with real pro talented performer dancers, unlike me who is trying hard to be ...a dancer

The payoff :

Flashmob !! for national day preparation !! @ Ion some more... my first ever

The experience

The fats & calories burnt

The so many choreographies I can learnt

Fact that it's only 6 times practice ?

okay lah okay lah...got money ... 100 only ... not like got gold bar lah..

things to consider:

1> can I commit ?

2> will I walk out feeling like a looser seeing all the pro young dancer ?

3> I'm 30... will chance ever come again ? If I dont do know ... when then ?

4> exactly becoz I'm not good enough, rather than I be a laughing stock, waste time... why not just dont do it ?

5> also....YRC... how ?

6> however.... u'll learn alotttttt .... so it's now...or neva....

HOW ? should I ?

bin nyun ...

bombie {=^0^=}

anyway kl ada yg mau ikutan ....and... you think you can dance... can ask me bout it.

some poem long long ago

found this di laci kantor gua...

some poem long long ago....

titled:

And I will be your your friend

Just like we have always been

when memories of past starts to dig in

let me just remember this rhythm

that I'll always be your friend

not the best but definitely worthy

of a pure friendship we've built

based on trust and peace you gave me

assurance you've ascertained me

that 4eva we shall always keep

this friendship till eternity

should I start to question

on admiration I have on your works of faith

joy I kept when you made my day

encouragement u've shared not only to me but all else

shall I remind myself that this prevails

that I've been your friend all along in the past

I am your friend as this moment where I stand

and till forever and then

I'll always choose to be your friend

with every effort that I can

for your gift of friendship is one of the best privilege I could have

Never wanna loose it, so I'll keep it with all I am

Silently I wish u'll neglect

small changes in me that I wont let

your eyes to see regardless how perfect

your vision can be..cause I'm definitely

keeping your gift of friendship

that I treasure best

bombie {=^o^=}

*kapan yah I made this ? cant remember....

in any case .... when I read this again... I got mellow... it feels at peace and at ease ... and I think it's beautiful #banggainpuisisendiri=norak:)

love this poem... love my friendship

biar genap

postingan ini hanya bertujuan supaya ga ada yg protes kl di bulan Mei ini gua jarang ngeblog... hehehe :P so here's all the random thoughts that have crossed my mind ...

1> UDAH 23 MAY !!! bentar lagi... JUNIE.... padahal gw msh berasa baru selesai kawinan El....and to make things worst....all 3 public holidays in April and May are all... done... finish... huixxxxx

cepet banget ga seh 2011 ? apa ini sindrom sa chap ?

2> I always wonder : apa seh yg ada di pikiran orang cakep kl dia orang lagi ngaca ? sadar ga seh mereka how beautiful they are ? and if they do... what does it feel to be beautiful ?

3> yg ini ... gw maap2 dulu deh yah kl ada yg offended....beneran ga ada maksud apapun terhadap subject tapi ini bener2 my own sentiment towards the object..and the object is : Rokok en asepnya...

Asli....gua benci !! titik dan sekian...gw ga langsung jadi benci semua perokok..... esp yg temen2 kantor gw.. ya mo gimana....gua udah kenal dia org as friends sblm knowing them as smokers...masa yah gua jadi benci dia orang ?

Tpi kl ada satu hal yg menurut gua layak punah di muka bumi ini .... itu adalah taneman tembakau dan business nya ... nyiksa banget ke idung gua yg sensitif ala doggie jagoan sniff sniff....bikin badan jadi stiff stiff ....

4> my current life is filled with...u noe : musicals, weddings (cousin & sis) and trip planning.. sibux jg yah taon ini... musical wise, sadly gua ga se-panic dulu.... knp sad ? krn kepanic-an adalah hal yg baik untuk berlangsungnya musical.... dan gua tidak panic.. tidak panic = tidak bergerak.... tidak bergerak = tidak ada hal yg diproduksi = cilaka besar when what we have in our script is a BIGGER dreams..

which makes me and Manda questions hari itu...kita....mimpi terlalu besar ga seh ? the stakes are high yow....en I really feel that kt sendiri as director are asking ourselves a higher quality..we challenge ourselves.. on which now I'm worried...are we asking for too much ?

hm...yah ... that's one part of musical... another happy part .... well....maybe it is too early to say but I believe a better morale leads into a better energy & spirit....

so I just want to say that... I really thank God for sending the right person to be dancers this time around

we trim down our numbers alot... we had a tough audition... and again maybe it's too early to say.... but then again they say : speak it with faith and He'll make it happen for His glory....so I cross my finger and declare that... somehow I see the selected dancers have impressive attitude and commitment towards this musical.....I pray what I see is what the truth He gaves

nuff said on musical... let's just make it happen yow :)

5> last random thoughts.

so .. mungkin I wrote before about one of my colleague yg gua serve...intinya ya dia salah satu boss gua lah... orang yg gua serve yah boss donk ?

so dia ini : lahir taon 78....udah married punya anak 1... rumah 1 tapi nyicil 2 rumah.... mobil dah ganti dari mazda terus bmw (wkt dia 29) then sekarang maserati (wkt dia 32)

kasat mata liat gitu... u'll think he's such a successful person dont u ? ... by facts... I think so too...kerjaan dia perfect...rajin bener kerja sampe jam 1 (at his latest hour)... always meet target... always meet deadline...promoted to highest rank dalam waktu 4.5 taon mungkin ? pinter seh gua cukup yakin dia pinter...anak RI .. RJ... and all the other R kl ..tau dah.. intinya....dia pinter, bisa kerja de es be de es te..

however : EQ minus !! dalam arti ...dia punya the worst attitude di kantor lah...bisa marah2 ga jelas..kelakuan kayak anak kecil ... semua ngomong : he's such a boy.... yup... ga ada compose2nya.... banting telpon....banting semua yg perlu dibanting...teriak kanan kiri.. en off course yg kena gua jg intinya....

ini bukan curcol....krn kl mo curcol...gua perlu duduk one on one with u terus minta doa pemulihan dr neh orang ......

intinya : it makes me question again....most ppl yg gua tau pinter intellectually...yg kagak dalem Tuhan yah....itu either very low in EQ....are just simply pig...

aneh.....asli dah otak gw mah ga tinggi2 bener gw tau... bisa lulus sampe 18 taon sekolah aja puji Tuhan...tp emosi gw as u know... jalan bener lah yah...

apa emang gitu ga seh ? org yg pinter gt tend to be.... honestly... ansos ppl ? ignorant ? yg pasti gua tau Ieie Vanya Meily Rimbo.... 4 mahluk first class honours yg dalem Tuhan...yg ga gitu..

other than that.... I hardly saw orang pinter yg punya hati.... IQ rocket EQ minus.....

dan gua sedih :P sedih karena they know how good they are and they gloat over that.. dalam kasus ini ...yah si boss gua tadi...

udah gitu aja... gua jadi sedih lg kl inget ini .. hahahahah... kita butuh banyakan orang pinter yg ga gitu :) ...hear my cries Lord :) hee hee :)

jadi...

gua udah ada 2 postingan di bulan May..

yah ?

bombie {=^o^=}