to begin with wants

This is a very belated post. Meant for Jenita, somewhere in May 2012. I only manage to post it today June 10' 2012. Here we go : 


I for once never a girl who know surely what I really really want

waktu kecil bokap pernah bilang sama gua and dede gua.....

anak papa payah neh .....pada ga tau mo jadi apa gedenya.....liat ajah dibawa jadi apa nantinya :P 

hehe.... I agree with him... 

gw bener bingung gw monya tuh apa kl udah gede nanti.....

and yang jadi masalah sekarang : kl udah gede nanti ...udah tiba.. 

it's no longer kalo....and no longer nanti... it's here....and now... gua gede sekarang

So I understand fully how your feeling is Jenita  :P ..... 

I..am as clueless as you sometimes......and I know this feeling sucks... 

But imagine you... have 10 more years than me... :)...you're still better girl :) 

And if somehow my life can be a testimony or a blessing with you......in this "no purpose driven" life that I've been living......then this is a tips or two that I once read in my colleagues's wallpaper

Courage Jenita, do not stumble

Though your part be dark as night

There's a star to guide the humble

Trust in God and do the right

Let the road be rough and dreary

and it ends far out of sight

Foot it bravely strong or weary

Trust in God and do the right

Perish policy and cunning

Perish all that fears the light

Whether losing whether winning

Trust in God and do the right

This is not the whole passage. I cut them short, putting the one that I think will fit the most. 


I know purpose & vision is truly needed for a life well lived. But when we seems not to have it all the time, we just need to remember and trust in good faith that we have been trusted unto the best hands. The Lord of the universe, upon whom relies our purpose of creation. 


Not everybody born to know what they are born for from the moment they understand A B C. I am not born that way and I learned to question my purpose of creation sometimes, and accept to learn a life led by creator one day at one time, the other time :)


And what better, than having our life align with His wants ? 


Jia You Jen :) Not knowing doesn't means not doing :)

bombie {=^o^=}