I remember last week...and nex week

so a week ago

gua ke wedding temen gua ..namanya Linda..

her wedding is....at Sentosa

looking at the weather around last week gua bener bener cukup kagum sama kenekatan Linda yg choose outdoor Sentosa ...the fact that Singapore weather itu lebih susah ditebak banding toto or 4D or baccarrat table (hyperbola)

but she go for it anyway..

gua ga kebayang seh weddingnya gimana.... as in location en everything..

when I reach...yah.... dibilang gua kaget sampe WAH ....jg ga...dibilang gua ga kaget jg..... sempet WAH jg seh..

so kalian tau pulau kecil di Sentosa yg udah kecil itu... dan jembatan yg imut buat menuju pulau itu yg pada dasarnya for..it fits only 1 person of me walking... and 2 linda ? the southern most point of Sentosa ? ---> coba di google sodara sodara..

yah....disitulah weddingnya..

hebat banget Linda...the longest....and not to mention most dangerous march in I've ever witness.....(di jembatan yg 300M panjangnya en mengapung di udara itu lah....Linda march in.... *sujud nyembah salut*) with full wedding dress ....and HEELS !! --> gua sampe bela belain beli sendal demi weddingnya, saking tau ga bisa pake heels di Pasir.....eh gua liat kaki Linda... JRENG..... dark blue with....tiffanny blue ribbon 5 inch heels shoes ....

and ....the best part : sempet ujan sebelonnya sodara sodara...

hoeh.....me and my lil faith......gua jadi singer aja ampe pusing.... ini gimana biar rambut gua stay ..ga terbang2 kribo......

ga kebayang gua feeling Linda saat itu gimana

gua rasa kl gua jadi linda ...udah luntur semua make up gua gara gara nangis....gimana ini weddingnya lanjut kl ujan gini?

FYI : no plan B...no shelter....no payungs ......just faith

However, when the rain finally stops, with a small hiccups and minor points here and there...

I've got to say....I'm very happy to witness one of the most intimate, memorable, romantic, chillax (chill & relax) wedding I've ever been too....

dinner by the beach after a short raindrops..dingin2 gitu anginnya....music by guitar...

great food, great company, great testimony, great views...... a great night indeed :)

kudos to Linda & Dion with their faith to proceed on this wedding

and seriously : for a FABULOUS theme (alice in a wonderland in maroon & tiffany blue world) that is all over the deco, invites card, buku acara and recept table (complete with all the candies and cookies in Alice's movies)....

linda being linda .... ga mungkin ga ada Poem di invitesnya dong ?

and here's the one I love the most, printed on the wedding favor

Dion & Linda

never too late to love

it's....a great night....

ga heran ppl are willing to pay premium price for a wedding in Bali...

hm........ adem hati gua remembering last week :)

the bride looks so pretty .... linda gitu loh..

the groom looks handsome ---> esp the combination of beige suits & tiffany blue tie .... sweet..

btw: maap agak susah baca ini blog : coz my font colour is in TIFFANY BLUE !! hee hee hee

haih...di tengah ujan gini...inget last week

jadi kangen sentosa.. hee hee hee :)

anyway : that's last week..

what's coming nex week ? HEE HEE HEE HEE *GRIN GRIN GRIN GRIN *

US trip !! uhuy !!

gua kayak orang belon pernah ke US ....always so excited each time I go there....

well... wish me luck in New York....may I find joy ....peace.... Love ...and most importantly ... may I find my way around so I wont be lost !! hahaha....

doakan saya selamat teman2.... meanwhile

MET NIKAH GILLIAN SASTRA... ( love love love and loveeeee for you )

bombie {=^o^=}

Read my water language

Tears say it all

i can speak indo english chinese
yet in all those diversity
i cant speak the most important language I need
language of my heart

anyway
my tears say it all
that seriously
i can no longer take all this sh**

wait
it should be in plural form
i can no longer take all these sh***

i felt
restless, powerless, useless, brainless, sleepless...

When I know He created me not that way

ah...
Whatever dehhh
terserah
saya menyerah
nangis juga... Belon tentu guna...

it's been tough

gua..
udah selesai packing !!!
ho ho ho...
at least it takes some burden up my sleeve

however...tetep banyak bener kerjaan 2 minggu kedepan..

anyway:

I called back home..

my grandmom is in hospital ... going to be out soon

she is to undergo an op..

en she's 89

we are all quite worried..en bingung seh

op ...ga....op....ga ?

namanya orang tua..operasi banyak resiko lah yah...

she's 89 gitu loh....

masih belon ada keputusan btw.... masih mikir what's the best to be done..

off course : the best will be : she's healed by HIS miraculous power.....

on the other hand

gua kasian dede gua seh...

it's been really a tough year for her I must say

stelah dia keluar rumah sakit abis dengue

mbak gua masuk rumah sakit dengue juga

terus mama gua jatoh en di gips and practically ga bisa jalan normal for 1 month

terus papa gua masuk rumah sakit...

lanjut....cowok dia dengue

en now....popo gua di rumah sakit...en dia yg jaga lagi.

eneg ga seh dia sama rumah sakit ?

kepaitan gua rasa dia juga...

and there's a part of me yg ngerasa useless jg

useless karena gua ga bisa do much over here....other than kumpulin duit bawa pulang

ga bisa bantu dia jaga family di rumah sakit...

and cukup sedih coz....well .. at her age dia udah have to go through the obligation of fulfilling family commitment

en..she's my sis... biar kata gua keliatan heartless to her sometimes..

or maybe kita ga keliatan sedeket other sistas around

still... forever she's my sis... our blood is tied

no matter how old we have grown to be.... there's always a part of me that want to protect her

pengen gua gantian sama dia jaga

tp kl gini...gua ngerasa ga bisa ngapa ngapain... mo semangatin / hibur dia jg... what's talk without action ?

but in all this...i think He just want us to learn...

He is giving my sis a chance to learn about commitment...

I am given a chance to learn how to surrender on things that is not my portion to carry....or simply impossible for me to solve....

yah...by this it's proven

we are made to be family members not by chance

coz this has been my toughest year lived so far

somehow I can feel it is too....for me & my family

but in the end...

as life goes on....we are moving on

walking away with invaluable lesson on love, faith, and commitment

segeralah berakhir 2010

gua.... mungkin ga sekuat itu....

bombie {=^o^=}

hatiku cenat cenut

Mengukuti kegemaran tante Gill...

Semalem gua ga bisa tidur cenat cenut mikirin kalo
tinggal 2 minggu lagih !!!
Tinggal 2 minggu lagiiiiiiiii gua ke statesss

oh noo
aihhhhhh
helpppp
i'm shocked
Pikir 3 minggu lagiiii
toloooonggggg

paniccc

* serasa kawinan *

arigatooooo

I believe...

you have been praying for me..

this week has gone SO FAR SO SO GOOD :)

thank you guyz :) love yaaaa

prayin for u too...

congrats El :) gua bakalan kongsian sama yg lain soon on our next plan

semangat Gill !! gua tau loe bosen ditanyain....jadi ya...cukup gua bilang :

u dont need to diet anymore baby....coz soon u'll be half size :) HOAHEOAOEHAOEH :)

SEMANGAT SEMANGAT !!!!

cepat datang Lo ... hoe hoe hoe hoe :) .... ga sabar ketemu loe ... kembaran jiwa gua....haha

we got lots of things to do before US, Jen....huhuhu.....mari berdoa may things fall into place

RANUUU......miss u....kau sering2 nguntip facebook ku..

bikin ku makin kangen padamu :P

SEMANGAT SEMUA !!!!

udah tengah minggu !!

bombie {=^o^=}

yg lg usaha diet... kencangkan perut sebelon US .... heheheeh :)

I accept

a year ago, 18 Oct 2009

I went to City Harvest

Pst Kong was sharing the sermon

It touches deeply into my soul that I remember it so clearly

It's about Job : and his sufferings

I took a long and clear note on this subject

At that point of time in 2009

I was just thinking : yah... this is a very good sermon

mungkin bisa nolong waktu gua face tough time

but in the midst of my height of life in 2009

gua cukup berpikir : what could go wrong ?

yeah....

but somehow I do feel that something big, something tough

is coming to me in 2010

A year past

17 October 2010

I did not go to CHC today

but I woke up and watch the live telecast

as said and mention

my life has been more than just a roller coaster this year

bahasa kerennya : Parah, ancur....

It's Pst Kong again

saying that he himself, is facing tough time....

most of us knew what happen

many of his preacher friend send encouragement to him and tell him that

He is facing exactly what he preached a year ago

he is being put into a test on what he preached himself...

hm....

and so it's proven..... kecurigaan gua

the source of my crisis is his sermon

karena memang segala sesuatu berubah sejak hari itu :P

hehehehehehhehe :)

it did make me wonder waktu gua denger sermonnya last year

kenapa book of Job Tuhan ? And why do I have to hear it, and even more : I felt strong conviction on Your word, when I just had a wonderful 2009....

but all I can say

bahkan in times when I slipped away from His close encounter and presence

He never let me go

each and every week, the service that I went: each preacher is just speaking something directly right to my heart : nancep

so today Pst Kong is speaking about Jacob

the one who keep running away from his father, brother and uncle

just like me running away from all my problems

the one who keep lying

just like me lying to myself

Jacob was in deep crisis

and so I am..

dan spt style Pst Kong yg biasa : he speaks in point forms

Crisis, commitment, confession, conversion

I accept the word

I accept the fact that a year ago I heard a strong message

that it flows to this year, the one that seems to be the saga of last year word

I accept the sermon and the prophesy : a deep change in my soul is coming

that's just going to change EVERYTHING else in my life

The greatest miracle that God can give me right now is not for :

1> me to have some changes in my work place

2> me to finally have a husband to be

3> my father to be healed from all his multiple health concern

4> my family financial's condition to BOOM.

but the greatest miracle I can receive right now: is a deep change in my soul that may bring my soul to prosper, and when soul prosper in Him, everything else will just fall in to it's own place

for whatever it is

Thank you Father

Thank you Pastor Kong

Thank you CHC

I may not be ur member

but u have blessed me even in my distant virtual presence

and call me at the very right time

I dont know if one day I might end up be ur member

but right now I know the work of God in my life is still to be done at my current place

As I learn to believe, trust, obey and finally walk behind Him again

bombie {=^o^=}

in irony

Udah lama yah gua ga ngeblog ?

Yah... udah

Coz my heart is not beating on the right track

as I say : my life's been a full mess this year

and things just seems pretty bleak at this point of time

so.....what's the best thing you can do when life seems like one big giant of never ending hole of pain ?

not blogging

yeah... that's the best thing I can do

coz if I bother to draw what's happening, or put into words what's running on my mind....

u might just question : ini anak kenal Tuhan ga seh ?

coz I sound .....hopeless, faithless, fearful, and whatever u name it

jadi..

as much as I want to be so truthful in my own blog....

some things are far better be known silent....then banging a horrible volume

cukup kuminta :

your sincere prayer my dear blogger friends

that if this is a trial

may I pass with flyin colours

if this is just the way things in life is

may I learn the horrible ugly reality with a big heart

that I can still keep that child like faith

a faith as if I have not known how bitter facts can be

a hope as if I am blinded by what bad things that I foresee going to happen tomorrow

and... if it's ever possible

may I be able to find my way back to love

to accept imperfection

to receive His way that may not be my way

Amidst this toughest year I've walked

I felt He's instilling in me to have this:

Patience

I've been pushed to wait

and wait

and wait

just so to proof that I have

truly have

this word : patience

Am I patient ?

Let's just say I choose not to be... or maybe I am just super impatient person

but if there's nothing that I can do other than this word :

wait

just wait

wait...not yet....

I got to learn to have that word the very tearful, tormenting hard way

haih....

just keep me in your prayer :

coz time don wait for my mind to settle down

while I still have these responsibility :

1> Not seem to be ending soon busy working world

2> States travel

3> Wedding Wynne : that pretty much is ALOT of things

4> helping my sis planning her wedding

tolonx....

u might not be able to even imagine me breaking down

but I noe some of you noe me well

remember that I'm just a girl

who has been singly fighting alone in this big cruel world

who is perceived to be so strong just because ppl always see the fighter me

who has been taking projects much way bizarre that I could ever think I can handle

who is not even so clever or brilliant during her school days

inside...... I'm just like any other normal girl

who wants a normal life

with normal way

..........

pls.. keep me in your prayer ..

thanx...so much

bombie {=^o^=}