di akhir tahun ku bertanya

sometimes I feel
aren't we just obsessed with ourselves too much ?
at least I think I am... and ....it makes me feel bad :P

at another time
I just felt that I am a super indifferent mean person :P
my survival skill to ignore things that displeases me has turned into a very powerful weapon that I used to shut ppl that I least favored out of my life...
least favored by my judgement ===> which is not always right.... people change...life change...

hu hu hu...
yah....
pada dasarnya aku hanya seorang manusia
yg lbh dari segalanya ....perlu banyak belajar mengenai kasih...

sulit...

bombie {=^o^=}

dreams

Been almost a week since..
but I had dreams about it even after it has gone past for 5 dayz
guess what ?

jadi dari selasa tgl 21 malem dan seterusnya (22, 23, 24, 25)....5 nights in a row :
I had dreams on Erick Wynne's wedding....

and....I don't know why ....
hahahah
too memorable ? too scarry ? too much pressure ? too happy that it's over ?
HAHAHHAHAHA :p

I dont know.
kl gua mimpi lagi malem ini...gua sms Wynne bilang dia beli Toto !
but anyway I've been havin bizarre dreams dari tanggal 21 itu en non stop sampe sekarang gua di indo :P

haha ....bizarre !! High school friends, Dian, Erick Wynne, Nasi Boengkoes....segabruk flash back..
huh....indo2....

gua agree sama Lolo that life brings too much pressure in SG
tapi gua selalu ngerasa keteken each time gua balik indo
feel so initimidated ...the fact that semua orang sekeliling loe berbicara bahasa yg sama dengan dikau...
terus macetnya.....tambah bau gedungan jakarta (langsung merinding lagi gua .... keinget masa2 kerja di Untar)
belon lagi kl ketemu orang2 yg lagaknya segudang waktu jalan di mall ...rambut setinggi hak 13 CM.....jalan udah kayak berasa di Runway :P... mentang2 dari atas sampe bawah pake bran-ded smua *oh please....pengsan*...abis itu: sok ngomong inggris ..... yg keluar.....lebih parah dari Singlish :P .... HHAHHAHAHAHAH *gubrak tante....ga usah pake stilleto boot setinggi lutut di jakarta btw ..... ga dingin FYI....unless u takut banjir tante ? haha*

yeah....en sgudang tipe indo di jakarta angkatan semi gua semi babe gua (means 40 ++ now) nyang udah berasa sukses en lagaknya kayak boss gede.... well...

ah i dont know.... emang gua not fated buat pulang indo..
I'm not 100% lovin SG but I also not 100% hearting indo...

guess the question now is : where do I belong ?

bombie {=^o^=}

a day after xmas

and so...
it's December 25, 11.30 PM Jakarta time..
gua di kamar gua di jakarta...

recollection time..
there wont be much to write
Jenita wanted for 2010 not to end so fast
I...am on the opposite side..
cant wait for this to come to and end...

though : I would want my holiday to stay longer...
2 minggu di us en 2 minggu di indo beneran ga cukup buat heal everything in me that's very much affected this 2010..... it's a tough year anyway......

well... some of the things that I am gratefull for :

for having the chance to go to New York, Vegas, USA

for having the chance to watch so you think you can dance live tour

for having the chance to establish the foundation of TLG Danz

for health that's bestowed to my family, even though dede gua & cowoknya dah demam berdarah and my papa masuk rumah sakit, and my mama jatoh and bengkak kakinya --> to be able to eat together in our dining table....is a blessing indeed

when I looked back at my FB foto this year : I realized I spend lots of time with my famiy in SG...and I'm lovin it........ this is what I'm grateful for...to have a lot of family in SG..and to be able to spend time together

I am grateful for : being able to survive my office till this very end : that pays my bill till now....no matter how much I'm driven untill crazy for it..

I am grateful for each added new friends that I never thot will come : through Blog : Gill & Lolo...


Somewhere down the road of this year : I look back at my resolution...yg ga gua bikin dengan serious di awal tan... yg gua cukup yakin kl gua ga bisa fulfill.... haha... but somehow it's half completed..the more important portion

ga bisa bilang gua proud: cuman bisa bilang kl gua grateful, coz gua mulai resolusi itu dengan hati yg kurang percaya pada dasarnya... tapi tetep stengah kepenuhan.. how can I say that I play a part ?

Something that I learned the hard way this year : is that Vision is a MUST ! a NECESSITY. A walk with a vision is the best journey one can ever get...

So my wish for this Xmas : other than the fact that I want to be skinny babe (hee hee --> sulitz emang)...... is for a God-given revelation of vision that will guide my life through 2011.

Somehow, this heart is beating a line : it's gonna be a GREAT 2011 !! *what can be worst that this year btw ?* ---> erm.... well.... we'll never know

MERRY XMAS 2010

bombie {=^o^=}

hhhh

gua...

SEDIH !!

argh !!

last few episodes of 2010

so here's what you miss on bombie's life :

On the last Episode :

So she went to America from Nov 6- Nov 21. She enjoyed the lights and hustle and bustle of NY City, got the taste the Sin City and not loving them (perhaps coz she's not watching any shows) and got back to LA to experience the best dance moment of her life so far, met good not so old friends considering that they only met like a year ago when she went states in 2009, yet when they met again : it's as is they have been friends since high school.

Saturday Nov 20, she went to her aunt's church. The church was celebrating an early Thanksgiving celebration and there she was, with her good old new friends, eating ham & mash potato, feeling peaceful and homey.

And ....on Nov 21, heavy hearted, she flew back to Singapore. Endure 20 hours of flight, that was delayed for 1 hour in LA, resulting her name having the honor of being called in Narita Airport to chase the next flight back to Singapore.

Constipated, tired, sleep deprived: she landed in Changi, only to be greeted by wonderful sms from work and other areas of life that seems like chasing and haunting her! Queing for 1 hour for a cab ride back to home and greeted by unfriendly cab driver who by the way, drive the wrong way to her home, which made her relish out her thorn and become than fierce singapore version of bombie: which in the end got the driver tame down ---> u got ur lesson uncle : serve your client with hospitality please !

Reach home, she tried her best to go to go to sleep at 3 am, set her alarm to wake up at 11. Yet, cruelly : she cant fall asleep. Kept thinking : Oh no...I havent unpack, what's gonna happen in office ?

So she woke up at 7, and woke up again at 9 !! She decided: okay since I cant sleep, better be unpacking. So there she was unpacking completely and by the time she's about to go to office, her home is done and taken care of ! (she got scared on her own obsession that seems like obsessive compulsive disorder symptoms or just restless anxiety)

Back to work, clear her mail and life went back to normal as how it's suppose to be but she's unprepared. For the first week, she cant find her omph ! her ability to multitask and absorb all task in surrendering mode. She wondered how she even cope with the fast pace life she's been havin for the past 10 years! Got scarred, got chickened out looking at the mountain of works and duties to perform and felt like running away.

One thing cross her mind : can you guys just live your life without me ? can I just be not wanted for a while ? can I just have a longer break ? ----> very bad thoughts indeed but she's just so tired of being needed and required to be another puzzle in completing a task.

*good news : she is no longer feeling that way anymore thank God*

On Nov 24, she went for her company DnD, win nothing, went for clubbing afterwards on which things got interesting as most of her friends got drunk, up to a point where she and 2 more friends landed in hospital after taking ambulance to send one friend there, who had not eaten anything at all that day, yet got down on vodka, and flaming lamborgini .. after 1 1/2 hour of vomitting session, ambulance is required.

bombie reached home at 4.30 am, slept at 5 am, took half day morning the next day, and office got very quiet as many are down the next morning ! Lesson learnt :

1> Have your food before clubbing

2> Dont listen to those ci ko pe man !

3> Stay sober before things got so u g l y !!

Weeks gone by ! She have her full legs back to Singapore ( not her heart though) ...and that's when things start to get boring again as life work just like per normal : wake up, bathe, go to work, take breakfast, work, lunch, work, pack up, go home, watch TV, do some sit ups back up push up (very little amount must I say), bathe, sleeps, and life goes on like that...

Couple of things sizzling up her boring life was :

1> Dance classes: in 2 weeks time she has completed 6 dance classes.

Before each dance session, she always got cold feet, so scarred, and feel so humiliated thinking that basically she cant dance that well. Before each class, she's usually shivering madly scarred ! But once she got in, heard the music, found the beat, relax her muscle, she found herself called back to the dance floor ! Felt like home !

She didn't let all out though, yet happy enough to revive her dance passion. It does kept her in wonder the fact that even though one person has not been dancing for quite sometimes, the diligence in watching you tube or other dance movie / performance does make one person inspired and enrich his / her capability --> once he/she puts their full mind of it.

and she proof this statement's true : once a dancer, always a dancer !

all this because she got to finish taking all her dance class by Dec 14, so being kiasu she make sure she doesn't miss a single lesson :)

2> Colleagues wedding on Dec 4.

There, her colleague has provided a very special booth for taking pictures that straight away printed out. And those pictures can be uploaded to facebook rightaway too. She has also provided lots of funky funny props to go along with, so many of them took idiot pics that's so funny !! relish your geek u !!

best part : bombie manage to get into contact with the picture booth owner and manage to convince her cousin to book the service for her wedding on November 5 nex year ! yay !!!! so excited :)

3> Wynne's wedding prep

what does she need to say about this ? Hm... A LOT !! it's frantic with many things happening behind the scene where bombie had to practice some yoga, tai chi and anger management --> seeking remedy and council by calling Elrica even though El was busy flying here and there --> thanks you El !! :):):)

but she thank God for a fantastic couple : Erick & Wynne, she loves them truly and really really really really pray and wish for all the best of blessing for this skinny couple (jealousy strikes) in their marriage life :)

4> Jojo farewell

Finally Mrs. Yohana Laurus Gunawan is leaving Singapore to set her foot in HONGKONG !!

after such a long wait the couple has finally reunited in the land of dim sum :) Happy for them and hoping them to produce dim sum babies piano playing garink joking soon :) Congratz Jo !

and.....that's what you missed, on bombie's life

on the next episode ..... expect to see a hybernating bombie in her lazy xmas spirit, lying around in her bed in Indonesia enjoying nothing else but sleeping and eating and saloning and shopping time !!

happy xmas

bombie {=^o^=}