to numb myself

against all the evil thoughts..
against drilling the holes in my heart even deeper
against the remaining of nails mark...caused simply by the meekness of mind....
from running away... towards the other end of reality...
land of expectation...and my own happy fantasy ?

can I ever be numb enough.......to move forward against all these odds ?
which keeps repeating itself...never let me go ?

to numb myself....
when I reach there..
I guess all these will stop :)

bombie {=^o^=}