Be the change that you wanna be

Somewhere somehow, I guess you've heard that statement before. 
I had
I understood the meaning.
But I guess I only embodied and walked the true meaning of the statement now. With some modification in between. 


Don't be the change you do not want to become


That's what I've learned out of the whole 2010 quarter life crisis. You see, life can truly be a bitch sometimes. And I just read from some funny posting in FB : life is definitely a bitch. Coz if it's a slut, it would be too easy :P haha ! it's funny I think :P  Wad's ur say ? True that ? ....true that !


Life isn't always smooth. And this is another common sentence that we always heard being asked. "Why do bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people ?" In the coarse of life we're walking, really....don't u ever feel so tempted to just be these bad & negative guys out there and experiencing the good things ? Even worse, I don't seem to see retribution served back right at them. And the worst of them all, is they got praises my man !! For being effective, efficient, top achiever, money maker and all the glories world can mention. 


Makes you question....why don't I just join them ? Why don't I just be bad ? Why am I so frustrated that such ppl lives, and they lives happily. Where is justice ? 
*sigh


If you really need to know my feeling, bacalah Amsal :P I think it mentions about the evil getting all they wanted. 


Yup...life can be a bitch sometimes. And that's exactly why I thank God for placing at every single corner and angle of my turns of life, a truth enforcer. Who are these enforcers ? Just some random people whose existence is not a coincidence and they somehow arrive at the right moment on the right time to speak sentence that "wake us up" and "pull us back"to the track where God wants us to be. This time it's my boss. She just slap me with "God is watching Mel. Have some faith in God. He is just. Retribution will come, whether we know it or not. As for us, don't be them. Don't join them. We know too well what they do is bad. We see it, we feel it, we suffer from it. So why would we want to be them Mel ? Don't be the change you do not want to become" 


I didn't get it at first coz really I so wanted to just be bad and be ignorant of all the consequences. So tired of being good and seeing no changes, no pay out....zero. 


Zoom in to 2012. I was having lunch with Kikoko :) It was a tough day, as usual. Lunch got delayed to 1.30 PM. As usual, I explained my day.  What made it so tough, what are my options about it, and how I wish I can just do this, but instead I can't bring myself to do that. And I consciously choose to behave a certain way as I do not want to bring myself to do the other end. At the end of the conversation, Kikoko just summarized, you've changed Mel. You've been better. You've come round. You wouldn't choose this before.


I was surprised myself at the option I chose. And that's when I realized that I have truly understood & embodied what my boss said : 


Don't be the change you don't want to become. 


If God who is good is in us, He has made us good. Don't be the change Him & us don't wanna be. 
I'm glad He stopped me.


And here comes another famous paraphrase: 
When the road gets tough, and being bad, doing short cut, be negative ignorant manipulative seems such an easy way out


Stay true to who you are. 
Stay true, to who we are...in Christ....


Now who are we again ? 
We are the one who has been made right by the blood


bombie {=^o^=}