righteousness

it's not easy

and when I choose to be at peace in joy and gladness
standing firm in rebuking weakness moment

I pray to the very least
this sacrifise of obedience may bless Your wonderful name
and bring fragrance to Your presence

to the very least
may it be counted as my righteousness
in following & humbly serving

bombie {=^o^=}

Which ?

Sometimes I wonder

Which one is better ?
Being single all the way
Or having love and lost along the way

Standing from one's view who is.. single all the way
Off course I think the grass is greener on the other side
I've never been on the other side of river anyway

Yet when I hear lots of hurtful stories
Of one.. having love and lost
And finding themselves fighting the toughest struggle in their life
Sometimes....trapped in it..and lost even more...themselves

Makes me always wonder...
Which is better ??

not an easy option and ...
I am always in my confusion ....

In the midst of my confusion
He has chosen His best for me
And play a little twist in my destiny

While I'm still confused
I'll lay my future in His direction
The best ... for me

bombie {=^o^=}

sempurna

Remind me Lord God almighty

That Your care & concern, Your Love, Your way
and most importantly....Your will
in my being & living

is PERFECT
sempurna
no flaw
no dot

nobody cares bout me more than You can ever be
nobody know what's best for me than how Your way is planned
nobody else but You who know the deepest thought of Your servant
nobody.....nobody but You

Kau begitu sempurna
di mataku Kau begitu Indah

*happy today: more than 2 ppl say: gua kurusan ...WAKAKAKA...wad a good news...HOHOHO...senang*

bombie {=^o^=}

deeply missing my air

I forgot that you were my only air that I breathed..... in office
The hug I missed the most when I'm on compliance leave
Worries that you'll be too busy when I'm not around
Or loneliness you felt when I was not there to keep you grounded

I forgot how I really loved you
and how you were once my only pilar of strength at work
My guardian angel on duty 24/7

I forgot..how I truly respect your work ethics
How I was amazed with your speed at work
and mostly...I forgot how well we worked together then

I forgot alot of things
Yet surely I will never forget that today
The first day that you are officially not by my side
is thousand times tougher than what I imagine it would be

I am sure that I'm happy for your move
Yet most part of me is still dis-ilusioned
You'll never come back by my side
And it's time for me to swallow the bitter truth
I've wasted my last days when you were still around
Now the past will never come by ever more

I want you back...I want you now...

bombie {=^o^=}

back

Last day in Indo..
I opened it with a good way :

SPA !!! hoho:)
Massage (ampir aja type message gua) + Scrub : total 2 jam = Rp 120,000.00
18 bucks only...oh my... so value for the money...

Then, I end it with disaster
I went to Salon. I wanted to re-perm my hair... so re-perm I did..
I came out.. with a hair just like afro american :P
OH MY GOSH... wad a disaster *..no picture taken...so don wish u can see me like lion*
So... tommorrow..I will STRAIGHTEN this hair :P

wad a day :P

back to SG:
If my God is able to protect me from something that I have never predicted before
I dont believe He will not protect me from something I feared upfront
So...I choose to believe that His protection is made perfect in surrendered heart.

bombie {=^o^=}

Recharging

I foresee
I might not have any rest like this week again for at leat 4 months to come

This week has been......GREAT !!

Started by dinner with ELG members @ Paragon. Oh it was refreshing, englightening, wild and..really mad !! haha *girls u noe wad I mean*

Watched Subaru on Tuesday....the girl look like Maureen as I said. The final dance is great (as always)...

Musical meeting & FA on Wednesday. I'm happy that we have that meeting. At least I, or maybe just everyone else, really realize that TIME IS REALLY RUNNING SHORT (a bang to my head, with all sort of Wedding en wedding en wedding and...some more wedding + musical on hands) so Grace is more than just welcomed.....it is prayed for fervently...

And after FA, we got involved into "higher discussion on long term planning" again....on relationship, marriage, kids etc etc .... Conclusion: this will be the last year I'll be WO. I'll retire this year, and will wait patiently for my W to be O-ed !!!

Thursday I went home...I am again involved in another "higher discussion on my long term planning" . At least I manage to clarify with my parents certain matters and boundaries. I'm glad I did so. Maturity comes with a courage to be open with your parents on certain issues you always think is taboo. It also comes with obedience, understanding of their point of views, respect for them and lastly appreciation that's topped by the best : a love for your parents for their care, concern, hard work, sacrifise, tears, worries, joy, pride in having us as their children, mostly for loving us just the way we are no matter how rude or bad we would have reacted then. I'm glad to be home...

Yesterday, I met Jenita, Devi and Elisa. Apart from Jen D who always looks so young...(but she drives me around Jakarta ..even manage to handle the "police" well....SALUTE Jen), Devi and Elisa seems to have mature a bit :) I am so happy to see them "grow". I guess I just love to see "girl power". hehehe :) But seriously they are prettier than ever before. From our meets, again I manage to clarify some stuff :) haha...I go everywhere clarifying stufffs.

And...today : My Papa 62nd Birthday. He shared the same Birthday as Denny Tio's Dad and another church friend (forgot who) Dad's birthday. Wishing all the Papas all around best day throughout the year :)

For my Papa: my prayer stays the same for your health and salvation. Mostly I pray that you will be the one and only person who hands me down when the Big day is coming :) Stay healthy, stay young and hip as the Papa that I know, stay the way you are, my beloved Papa who understand me more than any other man in this world could ever do:)

Be going back tommorrow. I am: recharged :) Thanks my DADDY IN HEAVEN :) Ready to go through all the hard work of June July August Sept RUSH !!!!

Bring it on guys !!! all the weddings, musical en all the best that is ever yet to come !! hehe :)

bombie {=^o^=}

fool

@ di airport...7.35 PM, June 4' 09

They say when one's in love..
They make a fool out of themselves...

Question:
Have I been so foolish lately ?

go and find the answer in Jakarta

bombie {=^o^=}

under Your wings

I am terribly afraid
Of a constant matter that's bugging my head
Nowhere to escape
Time is the only issue left

Yet in my vision
I saw a girl covered by His wonderful wide warm wings
Tonight...I saw it with my own eyes

The Lord is my shepherd
I shall not be in want

Indeed...
Yea though I walk to the valley of the shadow of the death
I shall never be afraid

bombie {=^o^=}
To home is where I belong
To home is where I'm heading

kadang pait

I know reality...

juz like
I know Reuben, Carrie, David Cook, Kris Allen will be the ones who win American Idol
When whom I favor are Clay, Bo, David Archuletta, and Adam Lambert.

I know who will be going home each week in American next top model
I know USD is going down like mad for the second time

sometimes I wish what I wish in the silence of my heart
could come true
and it will beat over reality..

most of the time
it didn't happen...

so I know reality
I just have to find a way to deal with accepting it
like to wake my senses to rush :

IT'S JUNE !!!

bombie {=^o^=}
*how long more Lissa ?*

udah....

Udah Juni
Udah deket...

Udah mulai takut..
*deg...deg....deg....*

sanggupkah ? mampukah ? bisakah ? lewatkah ?
daku......pasrah

Love
lead me to a place where I should belong
where there's no truth compromised
no hope wasted no fear stated

bombie {=^o^=}