from another point of view

it is a bad thing indeed.....from the way I see it...

but if one see it from another angle
it's a blessing in disguise... afterall....

I am not aware of that
till she knock on my senses

She is... my angel today then
juz like the way she has always been

I will be allright Mama J :)
thanks for treating me as a human

mel {=^o^=}

lost and not found

These days
That place has really been ...
The most excruciating venue
I got to step

Someone...
Find me a reason to wake up in high spirit facing the day gone by

bombie {=^o^=}

what if

what if
the only reason for you to hang on
is now the very only reason on why you have to let go
what must one do to attain contentment


count it all blessings when you are tried and tested
from there comes perseverence
and perseverence born patience


it's tough
but I'm counting my blessing
one ...by one

bombie {=^o^=}

finally

my sis is resigning :)
wohooo...finally.... I'm happy for her..
her boss...is like the one u can find in here : www.chaosatwork.blogspot.com
Miranda from Devil wears Prada means nothing next to them

bombie {=^o^=}

a changed life

Analyze all the winning soul stories
and notice that : a changed life will easily top the chart of most popolar testimony

Coz when one lead a changed life
Our light harmoniously shine one line
Jesus You are our Divine

And as the only thing that's constant is a change itself
Thus so life could daily be refined
Forever till eternity come

Creator of creations
Here's a life surrendered
Waiting for Your touch to be daily refined

bombie {=^o^=}

jreng jreng

a chance
of new zest of excitement

something new
something interesting
well I assume it should be fulfilling

should I ?
would I ?
coud I ?

Aih....
{'--__--''}
don noe

Why now ?
*better than never*

But it's not the right timing
*and it will never be forever*

I can't cope
*u'll never know till u try*

but there's too much sacrifise to be done
*which worth having a new experience of life*

aa :P
don noe
{''--__--''}


if anyone has "thinking machine" for sale
I bought one :P

bombie {=^o^=}

PMS

Each day started with 24 stalk of roses hand delivered to doorstep
Just nice
1 stalk, 40-50 petals per hour...perhaps that's how our patience will last


16 PM.
8 more hours to go
Life is left with 0.5 stalk of Roses.
20/ 30 petals.....for another 8 hours..
before the Hoover Dam breaks

how....can it last a life ?

today's tough...
wad will tommorow be ?

24.00
Hands left with 3.5 stalk of roses...
Fresh, full of fragrance
Full of grace and gratitude
For some so kind to share their roses with

life's shared
strength channelled
how better can life be more enjoyed ?

bie {=^o^=}

motivation

Don noe why for this couple of months
I felt like I've drawn further from those whom I used to be quiet close with
Good things is I'm drawn nearer to those whom I used to runaway from

But seriously,
I am quite sad with the feel...or facts, that we seems to be throwns distance apart
and to make it worse, I am so lazy to make things better for us...

My mind goes:
I don need you. You need me, that's a fact.
My life goes on without you...so I'll just maintain what we need to maintain

Sometimes.. or most..
I know that I am jealous with you guys
and perhaps out of that jealousy comes a heart that's bittered..
Sometimes your action really hurts me by acting like there's nothing happened
When indeed...something has happened...
Or is it just my sensitive me ?

Hm...no... I heard that you realize, and you realize it well..

So when I'm at my worst..
I always think this way...

Why am I still being nice to you ?
Why I cant seem to bring myself to separate you out of my life ?
Why...of all....it seems that I am not able to hate you ?
When, whenever I see your face...I really am tempted to just behave very badly towards you..

But I found myself .... not doing so...
Coz suddenly...I remember He told me once

that if I am being good to you coz you have been good to me....
then what difference am I of the world ?

But if I'm being good to you despite your changed reaction to me..
perhaps I've slowly begin to learn to understand some lesson out from this world

To love....regardless of what you receive in return
To love....even if what you get back is pain of rejection, condemnation, rude words.
To love....not coz you have loved me first... but because He has loved me long before I am created
To love....not for what benefits me.... but for benefits that I can bless you with

and I remember the source of my strength:
You are the way that truth and the life
We live by Faith and not by Sight
FOR YOU....WE LIVE IT ALL FOR YOU

when that bold underline words is lived in..
what an impact it may bring....

I can love you...
regardless of what...

and in all that I do..
I am reminded of my motivation...
This musical, weddings, dance ministry, work at Citi

In Faith..
I pray I'm serving and doing it all in a right one...
The right motivation..
The ultimate drive

FOR YOU...
WE'RE LIVING IT ALL FOR YOU

bombie {=^o^=}

sakit leh !!

addoooowww :P

gua jatoh lagi.... 2nd time in less than 1 mth...
if anyone is holding the competition
looking for someone who is
"the one who unintentionally never fail to make a fool of herself"
I surely won

Udah kayak life's calling aja..
If the rest are called to be CEO..
Im called to be C F E : Clown Forever and Ever

so I fell on April 24 at Keppel Marina Bay..
that time...flat to the Right side..
the blue black is gone..
but the pain remain

who saw me then?
Dian, Lydia, Jojo :P
If I was a lil bit quiet on Rani's bday
that's because : SAKIT LEH bekasnya:p
aiyooo

and today
I fell flat to the backside
when I finally realize what happen
found myself in position of
a mother giving birth :P

I love children
but not to the point of practising on how to deliver a baby in public..

the uncle and auntie around me all scream..
"ai yooooooooooooo xiao jie.... ni hao ma?"

From far away I saw like 5-6 Banking executives walking around :P
Like concern but want to laugh...
haih :P ampun dah..
MALUUUUUUUUUUU

Gone is my effort to dress properly today :P
I looked like exec...yet acted like .... a clownnnnnnnnn :P

bombie {=^o^=}
I don want to fall again Daddy :P

for Him

For Him
I will let go, forgive, and forget
and keep loving
whatever it takes

Jia you lissa

bombie {=^o^=}

ambigu

Though sometimes it hurts.....
I cant stop myself from faling in love to you

bombie {=^o^=}

of

Admiration is making sense
Being fond of is completely understandable
Love is ......often overrated
Yet mostly underappreciated

bombie {=^o^=}

lost in techno

I used to be very much in need of my laptop in NUS..just for chatting

Graduated from NUS
I start to degrade my needs of internet
to the rate of hanging on...in Singapore...for 8 mths straight, without Internet at home
Only occassionally I clear my mails

5 years ago
Marina + Fabio told me about friendster
not interested at first...slowly I learned the fun of it

3 years ago
I am fine with just hotmail + MSN and friendster
I created gmail out of no reason
with a big never to blogging

1.5 years later
I started blogging
6 mths ago my cousin drag + force me to create facebook

nowadays
everytime I on my computer
I need to at least :
1> Check my Hotmail
2> Check my gmail
3> Check my facebook
4> See if I want to blog
5> See other's ppl blog
6> Check youtube

I lost to techno ... in a good and bad way
haha :P

sooner or later...just like a bank Account
I need to consolidate

bombie {=^o^=}

Forgiveness

Guess that will be the big theme this week.

All along from BBC : saturate
& the message I received today
I think somehow somewhere someone above
knows and understands the importance that

If He digs deeper...and deeper...layer upon layer
right into a neatly covered up heart
there lies unforgiveness and hurts that's kept quite tight
unrealizing they were still there

it's pretty clear to me
time to throw away past hurts
& move forward with future


bombie {=^o^=}
learning to trust again

I fell in love

I fell in love with someone
a girl......
and I have no wonder why the rest arent't

Guess the more u get to noe someone..
The more u will see the beauty of their creation
Esp when they are walking closer and closer to His glory

bombie {=^o^=}
just in case : I am absolutely 101% straight