I accept

a year ago, 18 Oct 2009

I went to City Harvest

Pst Kong was sharing the sermon

It touches deeply into my soul that I remember it so clearly

It's about Job : and his sufferings

I took a long and clear note on this subject

At that point of time in 2009

I was just thinking : yah... this is a very good sermon

mungkin bisa nolong waktu gua face tough time

but in the midst of my height of life in 2009

gua cukup berpikir : what could go wrong ?

yeah....

but somehow I do feel that something big, something tough

is coming to me in 2010

A year past

17 October 2010

I did not go to CHC today

but I woke up and watch the live telecast

as said and mention

my life has been more than just a roller coaster this year

bahasa kerennya : Parah, ancur....

It's Pst Kong again

saying that he himself, is facing tough time....

most of us knew what happen

many of his preacher friend send encouragement to him and tell him that

He is facing exactly what he preached a year ago

he is being put into a test on what he preached himself...

hm....

and so it's proven..... kecurigaan gua

the source of my crisis is his sermon

karena memang segala sesuatu berubah sejak hari itu :P

hehehehehehhehe :)

it did make me wonder waktu gua denger sermonnya last year

kenapa book of Job Tuhan ? And why do I have to hear it, and even more : I felt strong conviction on Your word, when I just had a wonderful 2009....

but all I can say

bahkan in times when I slipped away from His close encounter and presence

He never let me go

each and every week, the service that I went: each preacher is just speaking something directly right to my heart : nancep

so today Pst Kong is speaking about Jacob

the one who keep running away from his father, brother and uncle

just like me running away from all my problems

the one who keep lying

just like me lying to myself

Jacob was in deep crisis

and so I am..

dan spt style Pst Kong yg biasa : he speaks in point forms

Crisis, commitment, confession, conversion

I accept the word

I accept the fact that a year ago I heard a strong message

that it flows to this year, the one that seems to be the saga of last year word

I accept the sermon and the prophesy : a deep change in my soul is coming

that's just going to change EVERYTHING else in my life

The greatest miracle that God can give me right now is not for :

1> me to have some changes in my work place

2> me to finally have a husband to be

3> my father to be healed from all his multiple health concern

4> my family financial's condition to BOOM.

but the greatest miracle I can receive right now: is a deep change in my soul that may bring my soul to prosper, and when soul prosper in Him, everything else will just fall in to it's own place

for whatever it is

Thank you Father

Thank you Pastor Kong

Thank you CHC

I may not be ur member

but u have blessed me even in my distant virtual presence

and call me at the very right time

I dont know if one day I might end up be ur member

but right now I know the work of God in my life is still to be done at my current place

As I learn to believe, trust, obey and finally walk behind Him again

bombie {=^o^=}