10.5 hours before I set foot at Macau...excited :) kind of tired too...
my first trip back to Hongkong after 14 years....and for the first time ever: my first mission trip:)
all da way till Jan 1' 08 we'll be in land of our ancestors.
leaving Singapore.....leaving 2007...
It has been....a MARVELOUS year....
Somewhere in the hecticness of all the outstanding matters in office...
5 PM December 19' 2007...I stop for a moment..
In 10 seconds...all things flashed back before my eyes....
For all that have happened...for all that may happened...
Ups and down Rocketed as far as Heaven and earth...
Roller coster of one's life truly pictured.....
almost....for a second....tears drop from my eyes....
It has really truly seriously been an AMAZING 2007....
This might be my last entry in 2007.
See you in 2008. Merry Christmas and Happy Nu Year all :)
God bless you... Jesus loves you...
He has always been AWESOMELY AMAZINGLY GREAT....hasn't He ?
bombie {=^o^=}
in thankfullness of the colors of 2007...being 26...and never been happier :)
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Sunday, December 16, 2007
2 random thoughts toss in a blog...salad for your soul...
1st thoughts: Ko Omar's sermong
2nd thoughts: Am I being naive ?
Thanks to Lydia for your blog entry: December 16' 07.
I was superbly sleepy during Ko Omar's sermons today, but I'm mostly awake on the right moment :P... so I am able to still catch few of his and His mesage..........Thank God for that *maap sekalee Ko...ampuni......ini pengakuan dosa namanya...hehehehe*
It is ...scary..living without a dream (Ko mar's sermon: sebuah templakan keras di pipi kiri). To say I'm not one of the person who fall in this cathegory.....will be a lie. Though they always say that they know my long term dream...I doubt they do...as I doubt I myself really know.....specifically....wad on earth am I here for? That FORTE moments.....Wad issit gonna be ? General purpose: I suppose every Christian know wad on earth are they here for....
And even scarier is : the fact that this is not something new that Ko Omar/ other pastor just speak about today. It has been discussed, from Sunday services to FA to daily bread...to anything. The Psalmist says: a man without a vision shall parish. Woo....scary ya ?
Then on prioritising God..sebuah templakan kembali ke sebelah pipi kanan. Hm.. if I fall asleep during sermon...apa ini yah contoh hidup orang yg mengutamakan Tuhan? ....hehehe... Gua yakin jawabannya ga :) lah wong lover of your life is speaking to you through your pastor...and u fall asleep..hm... so yah......no excuses for me falling asleep....I have to get up and rekindle the passion again I know :)
Nah... kl dua itu digabungin....u can say I live my life pretty gambling yah ? Ga ada mimpi...ga terlalu ngutamain Tuhan....wwwooooo.... bahaya bahaya.... Jadi disinilah saya... sadar banget sama kelemahan saya.......I'm not as perfect as what people always picture me to be... The Lord knows it... well !!.. So help me in achieving perfection okay ?...Thank you upfront...
So... wads that got to do with being naive ? That would be the story of me and my moms conversation...seperti biasa... over the phone.... and spt biasa...she's always as negative as she can be... and she questioned my choice of life...on why I'm not pursuing my carreers when opportunities is so wide opened......*especially on money making part*....on how money can help the world goes round....on how money this .. money that.... haih..ngetiknya aja capek ngomongin money...:P udah tiap hari kerja ngomongin hal ini terus :P..
It was a very normal conversation b/w me and my mom.... and forever..I stand in my point of view....on how I do not want to be driven by money...and how much I want her to see how God has blessed me throughout my entire life... and how I really want her to believe that my life...is definitely gonna be so much better than what she can expect it to be.... on God's protection..blessing...love... covering...over my life....and through it all it will be...On stopping to complain and starting to say thanks......
To her..money can buy your health... live longer....live better...
To me... life is christ...and death is a welcoming home to Father's house...
She told me....I'm naive, idelistic, and have not seen the real world out there, on how bad their views can be when they see that you don't have the "wealth"......
I may not know that much but I have come to know how cruel one's life can be .. and I choose not to be affected by how bad the world can be..for wad matters to me... is how God's view over my life....anything else..He'll take care to be in place.....
She said since you're still young.. work yourself hard to achieve a better life.. all relies on your hands and no one elses.......
I told her... my everything is not from my hardwork..not from me at all.....all are just declaration of His love....
The conversation ends with a shock on why Hady won Asian Idol....then we went back to our own TV... I pray hard the day will come... that she may understand how I view a life.....a precious life God has given us......that will be when she understand Christian faith...and the day will come.. * Yang percaya katakan AMIN !!!!!!!!!! ..AMIN BANGET!!!!*
But it is funny to me...I feel I don't really have clear pictures of my dream....that my path is pretty risky to walk on...Pretty uncertain out there.. scary yeah, for it is a really.. seriously ...cruel world out there...........But I stand so strong headed telling her how GREAT GOD has been...and how my life...in my tiny little faith..shall always be good in HIM:) I ask her... to wait and see ....
Hubungan dua hal di atas ? Dalam ketidak jelasan akan impian masa depan gua...and dalam keyakinan akan kebaikan Tuhan yang pasti membawa gua kembali dalam pangkuan kasihNya..sampai Dia benar2 terprioritaskan secara REAL in my life....I will persevere with this Faith and will keep sharing it with whomsoever I'm given a chance
And slowly I know... akan tergambar dengan sendirinya....dreams and visions of mine...not in a day... or a month..it shall be longer... but at least I know.... my dreams are His...and His are mine.....even if it's not specifically be known to me....but step by step...I'm fine enough to live my dream... one day at a time.. :)
Search me again...and seek out my heart o God......in You...our faith will never fails !!
bombie {=^o^=}
2nd thoughts: Am I being naive ?
Thanks to Lydia for your blog entry: December 16' 07.
I was superbly sleepy during Ko Omar's sermons today, but I'm mostly awake on the right moment :P... so I am able to still catch few of his and His mesage..........Thank God for that *maap sekalee Ko...ampuni......ini pengakuan dosa namanya...hehehehe*
It is ...scary..living without a dream (Ko mar's sermon: sebuah templakan keras di pipi kiri). To say I'm not one of the person who fall in this cathegory.....will be a lie. Though they always say that they know my long term dream...I doubt they do...as I doubt I myself really know.....specifically....wad on earth am I here for? That FORTE moments.....Wad issit gonna be ? General purpose: I suppose every Christian know wad on earth are they here for....
And even scarier is : the fact that this is not something new that Ko Omar/ other pastor just speak about today. It has been discussed, from Sunday services to FA to daily bread...to anything. The Psalmist says: a man without a vision shall parish. Woo....scary ya ?
Then on prioritising God..sebuah templakan kembali ke sebelah pipi kanan. Hm.. if I fall asleep during sermon...apa ini yah contoh hidup orang yg mengutamakan Tuhan? ....hehehe... Gua yakin jawabannya ga :) lah wong lover of your life is speaking to you through your pastor...and u fall asleep..hm... so yah......no excuses for me falling asleep....I have to get up and rekindle the passion again I know :)
Nah... kl dua itu digabungin....u can say I live my life pretty gambling yah ? Ga ada mimpi...ga terlalu ngutamain Tuhan....wwwooooo.... bahaya bahaya.... Jadi disinilah saya... sadar banget sama kelemahan saya.......I'm not as perfect as what people always picture me to be... The Lord knows it... well !!.. So help me in achieving perfection okay ?...Thank you upfront...
So... wads that got to do with being naive ? That would be the story of me and my moms conversation...seperti biasa... over the phone.... and spt biasa...she's always as negative as she can be... and she questioned my choice of life...on why I'm not pursuing my carreers when opportunities is so wide opened......*especially on money making part*....on how money can help the world goes round....on how money this .. money that.... haih..ngetiknya aja capek ngomongin money...:P udah tiap hari kerja ngomongin hal ini terus :P..
It was a very normal conversation b/w me and my mom.... and forever..I stand in my point of view....on how I do not want to be driven by money...and how much I want her to see how God has blessed me throughout my entire life... and how I really want her to believe that my life...is definitely gonna be so much better than what she can expect it to be.... on God's protection..blessing...love... covering...over my life....and through it all it will be...On stopping to complain and starting to say thanks......
To her..money can buy your health... live longer....live better...
To me... life is christ...and death is a welcoming home to Father's house...
She told me....I'm naive, idelistic, and have not seen the real world out there, on how bad their views can be when they see that you don't have the "wealth"......
I may not know that much but I have come to know how cruel one's life can be .. and I choose not to be affected by how bad the world can be..for wad matters to me... is how God's view over my life....anything else..He'll take care to be in place.....
She said since you're still young.. work yourself hard to achieve a better life.. all relies on your hands and no one elses.......
I told her... my everything is not from my hardwork..not from me at all.....all are just declaration of His love....
The conversation ends with a shock on why Hady won Asian Idol....then we went back to our own TV... I pray hard the day will come... that she may understand how I view a life.....a precious life God has given us......that will be when she understand Christian faith...and the day will come.. * Yang percaya katakan AMIN !!!!!!!!!! ..AMIN BANGET!!!!*
But it is funny to me...I feel I don't really have clear pictures of my dream....that my path is pretty risky to walk on...Pretty uncertain out there.. scary yeah, for it is a really.. seriously ...cruel world out there...........But I stand so strong headed telling her how GREAT GOD has been...and how my life...in my tiny little faith..shall always be good in HIM:) I ask her... to wait and see ....
Hubungan dua hal di atas ? Dalam ketidak jelasan akan impian masa depan gua...and dalam keyakinan akan kebaikan Tuhan yang pasti membawa gua kembali dalam pangkuan kasihNya..sampai Dia benar2 terprioritaskan secara REAL in my life....I will persevere with this Faith and will keep sharing it with whomsoever I'm given a chance
And slowly I know... akan tergambar dengan sendirinya....dreams and visions of mine...not in a day... or a month..it shall be longer... but at least I know.... my dreams are His...and His are mine.....even if it's not specifically be known to me....but step by step...I'm fine enough to live my dream... one day at a time.. :)
Search me again...and seek out my heart o God......in You...our faith will never fails !!
bombie {=^o^=}
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
oleh2 dari Bandung
Ketika berlalu
semua rasa dalam hidupku
dan amarah yang menggebu
tertuju hanya padamu
Ketika sirna
Kerinduan yang membara dalam dada
dan pedih yang pernah tercipta
dalam semua rasa yang pernah kubina
Ketika pergi
Tinggalkan sisa puing dalam relung hati
Sisakan hanya rajutan memori
dan gulungan kisah yang kumulai sendiri
Tiada lagi
Akan pernah kusesali
Semua yang terjadi melanda diri
dalam hati yang lemah ini
Satu hal yang pasti meluap
Dari lubuk hatiku terucap
Kau Bapaku sungguhlah dasyat
Dalam penyertaanMu yang ketat
Takkan Kaubiarkan sekalipun ku tergeletak
Dalam kubangan lumpur yang sendiri kubuat
Sungguh bersamaMu pastilah kudapat
Kedamaian sejati sepanjang abad
bombie {=^O^=}
looking back....in the midst of Bandung heights....
I'm so relieved I'm free...it's all over now with thee......
and that I'm assured.....He.....always loves me
semua rasa dalam hidupku
dan amarah yang menggebu
tertuju hanya padamu
Ketika sirna
Kerinduan yang membara dalam dada
dan pedih yang pernah tercipta
dalam semua rasa yang pernah kubina
Ketika pergi
Tinggalkan sisa puing dalam relung hati
Sisakan hanya rajutan memori
dan gulungan kisah yang kumulai sendiri
Tiada lagi
Akan pernah kusesali
Semua yang terjadi melanda diri
dalam hati yang lemah ini
Satu hal yang pasti meluap
Dari lubuk hatiku terucap
Kau Bapaku sungguhlah dasyat
Dalam penyertaanMu yang ketat
Takkan Kaubiarkan sekalipun ku tergeletak
Dalam kubangan lumpur yang sendiri kubuat
Sungguh bersamaMu pastilah kudapat
Kedamaian sejati sepanjang abad
bombie {=^O^=}
looking back....in the midst of Bandung heights....
I'm so relieved I'm free...it's all over now with thee......
and that I'm assured.....He.....always loves me
Sunday, December 9, 2007
whose rain issit anyway?
It's raining today....
Perhaps it signifies the sadness of 2 of my friends
who gets their heart broken just again
who have one love so true....
waiting for just a perfect time...
yet time and time again..
walls of circumstances come in between them...
one sure get tired keep on pushing
but getting nowhere in between....
I don exactly know what they feel...
yet surely I saw tears flowin.....
I'll be hurt too..
Thus my tears flow with both of yours...
Till our tears can wipe all the pains apart..
with prayer....everythings gonna be all right...
On another part...
It might be raining cos of the happiness of another 2 of my friends..
whose celebrating a love joint
reciprocal feelings get responded
after being single for almost a decade
he finally found someone....
and I'm too happy to hear it till I cry yet another time....
Which tears the sky falls ? I don noe..
I'm crying for both .... perhaps it did just so....
benernya...mau ngomong banyak banget... kan daku udah diem seminggu ya?
namanya juga cewek..pasti kayak petasan meledak dong ?
but then again....... yak 100.... TIME !!!
1.01 am Dec 10
bobo...
bombie {=^o^=}
Perhaps it signifies the sadness of 2 of my friends
who gets their heart broken just again
who have one love so true....
waiting for just a perfect time...
yet time and time again..
walls of circumstances come in between them...
one sure get tired keep on pushing
but getting nowhere in between....
I don exactly know what they feel...
yet surely I saw tears flowin.....
I'll be hurt too..
Thus my tears flow with both of yours...
Till our tears can wipe all the pains apart..
with prayer....everythings gonna be all right...
On another part...
It might be raining cos of the happiness of another 2 of my friends..
whose celebrating a love joint
reciprocal feelings get responded
after being single for almost a decade
he finally found someone....
and I'm too happy to hear it till I cry yet another time....
Which tears the sky falls ? I don noe..
I'm crying for both .... perhaps it did just so....
benernya...mau ngomong banyak banget... kan daku udah diem seminggu ya?
namanya juga cewek..pasti kayak petasan meledak dong ?
but then again....... yak 100.... TIME !!!
1.01 am Dec 10
bobo...
bombie {=^o^=}
Sunday, December 2, 2007
So Close
Don look at me anymore
For I am just so close
To a line of giving up my defence
and acknowledge....I'm already yours
Glance at me no more
Each drops of your sights
Zooms me to my line of boundaries
I built to stop me from falling
Freely deeply scaryly
Into your deep turqoise sea
There I'm not sure I may find
Oxygen to keep me alive
Water to wake me arise
and Flowers to make me surprised
No..this battle is not over
Still fighting here...stronger than ever
Fleeing myself from your magnet of illusions
Fact knows what kind of distractions
Your hallucination impacts to my realization
For soon it will come to pass
Where I'll be away from ur presence
Till soon comes our way
View me never another second
for I am.....so close....to that line...
FLEE !!!
*bie - elegant* {=^o^=}
For I am just so close
To a line of giving up my defence
and acknowledge....I'm already yours
Glance at me no more
Each drops of your sights
Zooms me to my line of boundaries
I built to stop me from falling
Freely deeply scaryly
Into your deep turqoise sea
There I'm not sure I may find
Oxygen to keep me alive
Water to wake me arise
and Flowers to make me surprised
No..this battle is not over
Still fighting here...stronger than ever
Fleeing myself from your magnet of illusions
Fact knows what kind of distractions
Your hallucination impacts to my realization
For soon it will come to pass
Where I'll be away from ur presence
Till soon comes our way
View me never another second
for I am.....so close....to that line...
FLEE !!!
*bie - elegant* {=^o^=}
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