Sutresssssss....
u noe wad I need ?
A HOLIDAYY !!!!!!
I badly need it...
and I badly have plan it at all...
and none seems to be able to go w/ me...
aaaarrrrrrgggghhh...
everytime I see calender .....I feel like throwing it away...
coz this is the first time ever .. in my 4 years w/ Citi....
that I HAVE NOT PLANNED MY LEAVE WELL...
aaaaaaaaa
and that made me stressss... that perfectionist blood in me boiling..
how can I let this kind of thing happen to me...
AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH
I need a holiday...
to Japan, Taiwan, or even just Bali...
from Pyong Yang..... or even just Kediri.....
Just somewhere..... where I can melarikan diri...
from accute syndrom of Singaporean quarter life crisis...
HOLIDAYYY....where are u ??????
bombie {=^o^=}
in desperate search of HOLIDAY !!!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Perhaps it's just Your way
This is ...once again... an long due post, which got cut off rudely by my internet line yg suka2 disconnect seenak hatinya :P.... as u can see... It was meant to be posted one day after I send Cindeee :P.. which is July 10.....and now is July 20 subuh..
Thanks God for whosoever who creates and think on this "autosave draft" features.. :)
eniwei....here's the post ......
Sent Cindy to Airport yesterday... New airport....terminal 3... bagus banget ya...
not that I've never been there before.....but this is the first time someone actually fly from there :D. hehehhehe :) keren :)
Another one is gone from this lion city....and moreover...my heart :)
one after another farewell... :P
all started since primary days...when my bestest of confidantes are always taken out from my life's picture.... and things will def-ly change when we meet again..
Yumiko...my closest cousin
Wiwid... my high school BFF
SMFE.... a group of amazing ppl with amazing spirit.......a group where I know I am accepted the way I am....regardless how "camen" I was then .... :P
Eusoff's Julia .... my most painful then.....coz I began to realise the pattern that...my closest buddies are always the first ones that walk out of my life, weakened and suffocated me from suffering the "post-farewell" trauma.....
Then I began to numb myself for all the future farewell, and all future acquaintance I made....I kind of made myself unattached to anyone....that I may easily recover when the exit from my life... I kept my personal space well.......
still.... I hold my tears the day I let my In go to Melbourne...
thinking I will be strong... I still go and send her... :P... that done bad to me :P
I miss her badly... till today.. :) esp during lunch time....it's never da same w/o her :)
then now...Cindy... one of the brightest star shining here ......her courage, her voice, her confidence...shines out like no one's business... No one can ever forget the day she took the step on Undignified1... to follow the Lord throughout her life...
She has impacted others unknowingly....and left a mark in my heart deeply :)
Cindy......One that I certainly put my hope on...
One that....I have to ...once again...let go......
That day I began to realize that my longest confidantes in my life
My bestest friends ever...my angel then...and my angel still...
The last person who did not give up pulling me back to Him... when others had...
and the one that has stayed in my life for a very long time..........
One that I never regret having befriended, stayed together, shared my deepest secret,
stayed till late night chatting, gossiping, enriching life, edifying, encouraging each other....
passing on His message and love to each other....
my Marina... is now in the exit way too.....
Perhaps....it really is Your way...
Taking away my confidantes.....that You will be my one and only confidant...
if such.....
Guess I can only lay rest my faith, hope and love in You..
Before anyone is taken away from me again :) hahahaha :)
can't deal with the pain.... :)
I suppose it's really true what me and Marina discuss that day..
In my most strength... You will not let me shine...that I might not boast myself saying I can do it coz ...partly my ability..... partly Your love for me...
We're saying that amongst us, during our school time, she show a sign that she will be the best money earner, and I'll be ....off course... best put in a home to be homemaker :p
Mostly : I will not show any sign that I'll shine in my career...and she does not show any sign that she will fall in love and marry that soon...
What happen now? My carreer shines more... and her love life definitely shines brighter (she's getting married next year valentine)
True enough: I always believe she will be the best career woman amongst us....but I also think she will marry first...though I know that I fulfill the standard of a good wife more in terms of household skills (jarang2 wife nowadays bisa partime jadi maid....hehehehe)
Sometimes...when I look at this career path I walk...I truly wonder how did He do this...
How can it be me? I really don have whatever it takes to shine as career woman....comparatively to Marina....
But yah... we agree : He wants our Isaac. Career is important for Marina...and He is asking her to be faithfull and give the career to Him to handle.....likewise marriage is important for me...
well......Our Isaac is in His hands now.....I have given mine.....
Doing so.... He's actually covering us from the sin of pride...
a hazardous sin that can befall anyone.... and I'm not prone to it either....
When I can now... I know.... is not coz of me...coz I'm zero....and He's my hero....
When I get married one day.... I acknowledge....is simply coz God loves me so much...
that He gives me companion to share this life He has given us...
not coz I'm worthy to be my husband's wife.....or coz I manage to make him fall so deeply to me.....all coz He loves me:)
This is Your way....a beautiful way to keep me away....from my heart that my go astray...
bombie {=^o^=}
Thanks God for whosoever who creates and think on this "autosave draft" features.. :)
eniwei....here's the post ......
Sent Cindy to Airport yesterday... New airport....terminal 3... bagus banget ya...
not that I've never been there before.....but this is the first time someone actually fly from there :D. hehehhehe :) keren :)
Another one is gone from this lion city....and moreover...my heart :)
one after another farewell... :P
all started since primary days...when my bestest of confidantes are always taken out from my life's picture.... and things will def-ly change when we meet again..
Yumiko...my closest cousin
Wiwid... my high school BFF
SMFE.... a group of amazing ppl with amazing spirit.......a group where I know I am accepted the way I am....regardless how "camen" I was then .... :P
Eusoff's Julia .... my most painful then.....coz I began to realise the pattern that...my closest buddies are always the first ones that walk out of my life, weakened and suffocated me from suffering the "post-farewell" trauma.....
Then I began to numb myself for all the future farewell, and all future acquaintance I made....I kind of made myself unattached to anyone....that I may easily recover when the exit from my life... I kept my personal space well.......
still.... I hold my tears the day I let my In go to Melbourne...
thinking I will be strong... I still go and send her... :P... that done bad to me :P
I miss her badly... till today.. :) esp during lunch time....it's never da same w/o her :)
then now...Cindy... one of the brightest star shining here ......her courage, her voice, her confidence...shines out like no one's business... No one can ever forget the day she took the step on Undignified1... to follow the Lord throughout her life...
She has impacted others unknowingly....and left a mark in my heart deeply :)
Cindy......One that I certainly put my hope on...
One that....I have to ...once again...let go......
That day I began to realize that my longest confidantes in my life
My bestest friends ever...my angel then...and my angel still...
The last person who did not give up pulling me back to Him... when others had...
and the one that has stayed in my life for a very long time..........
One that I never regret having befriended, stayed together, shared my deepest secret,
stayed till late night chatting, gossiping, enriching life, edifying, encouraging each other....
passing on His message and love to each other....
my Marina... is now in the exit way too.....
Perhaps....it really is Your way...
Taking away my confidantes.....that You will be my one and only confidant...
if such.....
Guess I can only lay rest my faith, hope and love in You..
Before anyone is taken away from me again :) hahahaha :)
can't deal with the pain.... :)
I suppose it's really true what me and Marina discuss that day..
In my most strength... You will not let me shine...that I might not boast myself saying I can do it coz ...partly my ability..... partly Your love for me...
We're saying that amongst us, during our school time, she show a sign that she will be the best money earner, and I'll be ....off course... best put in a home to be homemaker :p
Mostly : I will not show any sign that I'll shine in my career...and she does not show any sign that she will fall in love and marry that soon...
What happen now? My carreer shines more... and her love life definitely shines brighter (she's getting married next year valentine)
True enough: I always believe she will be the best career woman amongst us....but I also think she will marry first...though I know that I fulfill the standard of a good wife more in terms of household skills (jarang2 wife nowadays bisa partime jadi maid....hehehehe)
Sometimes...when I look at this career path I walk...I truly wonder how did He do this...
How can it be me? I really don have whatever it takes to shine as career woman....comparatively to Marina....
But yah... we agree : He wants our Isaac. Career is important for Marina...and He is asking her to be faithfull and give the career to Him to handle.....likewise marriage is important for me...
well......Our Isaac is in His hands now.....I have given mine.....
Doing so.... He's actually covering us from the sin of pride...
a hazardous sin that can befall anyone.... and I'm not prone to it either....
When I can now... I know.... is not coz of me...coz I'm zero....and He's my hero....
When I get married one day.... I acknowledge....is simply coz God loves me so much...
that He gives me companion to share this life He has given us...
not coz I'm worthy to be my husband's wife.....or coz I manage to make him fall so deeply to me.....all coz He loves me:)
This is Your way....a beautiful way to keep me away....from my heart that my go astray...
bombie {=^o^=}
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
getting old is not the worst thing u can ever imagine
bergerak dari sindrom selasa ga ada kerjaan feel so weird.....
we had dinner today.. 4 memberz of ELG cabang blessed :)
yah tadinya seh mo ngomongin wedding Chairlady..
tapi in the end jadi ngomongin Youth....and lastly... ngomongin masa depan..
Dian bilang : sadarkah kita akan terpisah satu dan lain benua...or at least territory ....
Fenny ikut Edo, Widiya ikut John, Jojo ke Hongkong, Lydia ke HongHong, tersisalah daku and Dian for the meanwhile ... yg mgkn jg ke Surabaya :P
lucu yah hidup....a time to meet .... is always followed by a time for farewell bid....
and when I read widiya's blog (after so long belon check).... she ask the question..
wonder will we ever be juz like Carrie and da gank...
Frenz for life 15 years from now... wahaha...sulitz jg...
en dari dinner tadi...at least I know that :
1> wad I felt laz Sunday... is not anomaly :) It's the general atmosphere...Phew..
Gua pikir gua over sensi lagi ....biasa ... melan :)
2> We need to extend a new youth service.. keluarga muda namanya :D HAHAHAHH :p .... atau ELG Service...*yg ini seh ide gilee ajeee*
3> yah...kita ini pd dasarnya dah harus terima kenyataan en biasain diri denger kata "keluarga muda"..."cabenya si jeng itu enak"...." bawang di geylang lebih garing"......"harga ayam naik...pamperz baby jg naik"........ "citigroup shares drop...sale sale.. quick buy"
ketimbang dengerin "eh Zara sale... 50% loh"......." nonton apa neh weekend ini ?"..... " CK Tangs rabu ini 12 % rebate bok..."........."Si itu lagi deket sama siapa ? Oh yah.. kok bisa? kayaknya ga cocok banget "
4> Yet...along with that... I also find out that we are all...sakit kuping denger kata " keluarga muda" ..hahahha...sounds so scarry :P
5> In vitro is still a better option than adoption. Adoption is still a better option then angkat anak asuh....
6> Lydia Sista itu beneran type B sejati..... The Queen of B_ _ _ (u guess) .....*maap Lyd....hohohoho* we will definitely make a movie called : my gf is type B on her wedding day :)
so... a good dinner it is :) sering2 ketemuannya...
maybe next time we'll have a chance to eat : RICCIOTI :) *masih ngotot*
bombie {=^o^=}
we had dinner today.. 4 memberz of ELG cabang blessed :)
yah tadinya seh mo ngomongin wedding Chairlady..
tapi in the end jadi ngomongin Youth....and lastly... ngomongin masa depan..
Dian bilang : sadarkah kita akan terpisah satu dan lain benua...or at least territory ....
Fenny ikut Edo, Widiya ikut John, Jojo ke Hongkong, Lydia ke HongHong, tersisalah daku and Dian for the meanwhile ... yg mgkn jg ke Surabaya :P
lucu yah hidup....a time to meet .... is always followed by a time for farewell bid....
and when I read widiya's blog (after so long belon check).... she ask the question..
wonder will we ever be juz like Carrie and da gank...
Frenz for life 15 years from now... wahaha...sulitz jg...
en dari dinner tadi...at least I know that :
1> wad I felt laz Sunday... is not anomaly :) It's the general atmosphere...Phew..
Gua pikir gua over sensi lagi ....biasa ... melan :)
2> We need to extend a new youth service.. keluarga muda namanya :D HAHAHAHH :p .... atau ELG Service...*yg ini seh ide gilee ajeee*
3> yah...kita ini pd dasarnya dah harus terima kenyataan en biasain diri denger kata "keluarga muda"..."cabenya si jeng itu enak"...." bawang di geylang lebih garing"......"harga ayam naik...pamperz baby jg naik"........ "citigroup shares drop...sale sale.. quick buy"
ketimbang dengerin "eh Zara sale... 50% loh"......." nonton apa neh weekend ini ?"..... " CK Tangs rabu ini 12 % rebate bok..."........."Si itu lagi deket sama siapa ? Oh yah.. kok bisa? kayaknya ga cocok banget "
4> Yet...along with that... I also find out that we are all...sakit kuping denger kata " keluarga muda" ..hahahha...sounds so scarry :P
5> In vitro is still a better option than adoption. Adoption is still a better option then angkat anak asuh....
6> Lydia Sista itu beneran type B sejati..... The Queen of B_ _ _ (u guess) .....*maap Lyd....hohohoho* we will definitely make a movie called : my gf is type B on her wedding day :)
so... a good dinner it is :) sering2 ketemuannya...
maybe next time we'll have a chance to eat : RICCIOTI :) *masih ngotot*
bombie {=^o^=}
Monday, July 14, 2008
a time for every purpose under heaven
Gua agak heran napa blog David terasa kayak our time in TLG is really up :P
hehehehe :P.... jadi ke-impact :P *hayoh Vid... !!!...mengalir neh urapan*
Coz I've been asking God.....somehow...many time this year..
Each time I got lost... I ask Him again...
Are You sure I'm supposed to still be here Lord ?
Yah Dia pasti tau dan yakin lah yah :)
Coz He holds my future... tp yah ... gua off course frustasi coz the question keeps coming back :P
The answer is always on the spot... : stay !!!
But I cannot stop but wonder..
apa ini sindrom normal yg dialami Ko Omar jg dan lain2nya dulu...
atau emang beneran soon my time will be over..
harus siap2 dong kl soon to be over ?
Coz as I stack on my 6 months upfront...
Kerasa .... this got to end one day......
not too fast not too soon...8 taon di Youth bok :P
yet when my time is up... kok kerasa cepet banget yah ?
anyway:... till the answer is changed to move.... I shall stay.....
coz He still tell me to stay.....many ... many... and many times.....
maybe for my one last dream...
maybe to pull me back from my way that may lead me out of His way...
maybe...to correct my final judgement... final conclusion... grand finale...
of my first chapter of ministry...
perhaps... for something that I wish to be fulfilled too: to leave a legacy for the Last Generation
b4 my time is up.....
one last dream... to revive this all..
I'm still here anak2ku... sampe dijemput babe....
atau dijemput Prince Charming..
Naik lexus ke condo deket Plaza Sing..
HAHHHAHHAHAHA :p
*one last dream*...
btw : the last one is a joke :P
bombie {=^o^=}
hehehehe :P.... jadi ke-impact :P *hayoh Vid... !!!...mengalir neh urapan*
Coz I've been asking God.....somehow...many time this year..
Each time I got lost... I ask Him again...
Are You sure I'm supposed to still be here Lord ?
Yah Dia pasti tau dan yakin lah yah :)
Coz He holds my future... tp yah ... gua off course frustasi coz the question keeps coming back :P
The answer is always on the spot... : stay !!!
But I cannot stop but wonder..
apa ini sindrom normal yg dialami Ko Omar jg dan lain2nya dulu...
atau emang beneran soon my time will be over..
harus siap2 dong kl soon to be over ?
Coz as I stack on my 6 months upfront...
Kerasa .... this got to end one day......
not too fast not too soon...8 taon di Youth bok :P
yet when my time is up... kok kerasa cepet banget yah ?
anyway:... till the answer is changed to move.... I shall stay.....
coz He still tell me to stay.....many ... many... and many times.....
maybe for my one last dream...
maybe to pull me back from my way that may lead me out of His way...
maybe...to correct my final judgement... final conclusion... grand finale...
of my first chapter of ministry...
perhaps... for something that I wish to be fulfilled too: to leave a legacy for the Last Generation
b4 my time is up.....
one last dream... to revive this all..
I'm still here anak2ku... sampe dijemput babe....
atau dijemput Prince Charming..
Naik lexus ke condo deket Plaza Sing..
HAHHHAHHAHAHA :p
*one last dream*...
btw : the last one is a joke :P
bombie {=^o^=}
Monday, July 7, 2008
about friendship, relationship, marriage and love
I have this in mind long time ago...
But off course due to my wonderful internet...
I cannot post it till now :P
anyway: I was looking at my boss that day
and I got down to a point that I have to admit...
He indeed is a changed man...ever since he got married and even more..
when he has kid :P
In this case he change to a better person ....so much better that than who he was ...
he go home early coz : melissa... quick quick..I want to play with my daughter
during work.. he kept saying : melissa.. must help me make money for my daughter...
don be like that melissa.... my daughter and wife eat wad later ?
He told me he need to go buy her daughter shoes..ask me w/ the shoe at the shop opposite is good..... I give up....I have no daughter boss... i don noe this things :D
When he tell me he need to buy mittens.. go baby's department... I cant stop but laughing...
he... at baby's department ?!?!?!... ahhahahaha :P
and he threaten me : don laugh melissa...I noe this things much better than u okay
I guess it's just unbelievable for me the fact that he change to that extend.
This man... my boss..
the same guy that was still flirting w/ girl at marketing department...the hot kampong blonde...just like 2-3 mths before his wedding :P
the one who always play at arcade till early morning 5 am every weekends....
who...sometimes I feel.. took his wife too much for granted :P
I use to think that his gf... who is now his wife....who happen to be the prettiest girl at her bank last time..... is so "dao mei" *unlucky in chinese word*
why in da world she end up with him ? having a relationship for almost 4 years some more...
and not only that she knew all along that he still flirt around when he's w/ her....
she withstand all that... hanging faithful to him... and finally..end up marrying him..
I would have broken up with this kind of man longgggggggggg timeeeeeeeeeeeee before :P
it's just my principal....
but who knows what will happen in the end? He is a changed man now...
he always say that he is a good man......his wife is very lucky to have him as husband... he will not go wrong... and I use to put 100% denial on all that :P no way boss....no way ...:P
I got it wrong....
en I have to say I admire his wife...
My boss did say : his wife knew of what he is capable of..
she knew that he flirts around...but he will not take anyone else to be his wife other than her...
he always said that... she had confidence in him....
even when he did his last "flirting" session with marketing girl....
I ask him ...did your girlfriend (then) noe all bout this ? How would she feel ? how can u be so cruel ?
he said his wife knew....and she still stand there into the marriage..
I salute her courage and trust in love..... loose to her :)
it's not easy...
I always believe one should be really2 careful before marriage..
coz u have a chance to cut off a lifetime misery before that ....
U just have to be suspicious...and no..u don need to put faith and confidence in ur partner before marriage
well maybe half :) .....just nice enough to make it work...
but once u are in the marriage...
U just have to keep the faith... and keep it very tightly.. that ur spouse wont leave u
.. u must close ur eyes.. ears and every of ur senses :P just believe... even if things gone wrong...
faith and trust is the only subtance left to make your marriage works..
well i see now how faith has brought my boss' wife to her happiness statement now
I bet she's happy enough.. knowing that this husband of her... really adores her and her daughter... love change him ? or his daughter change him... i don noe ... haha
anyway on relationship... and frenship...
I just found out recently... there are so many ppl around me... just get attached
Yumiko, Charles, Handoko :P
Yumiko is particularly an interesting story to be told....
she just got attached with her best friend of 7 years..
funny how we always believe that she will end up with him..
and we always ask....why not just him ? if u need to be together w/ someone close enough..
why not w/ this someone that u have been sharing most of your life story with ?
normal: no chemistry..juz frens... the bestest frens of life.. and this that and all those...
and so just to proof our point..they end up together...
and she felt that it was just 70% rational and 30% romance....
thus she felt weird....where's those magical moment and feeling that "Hey..I'm attached u noe ?"
that rosy feeling of a girl in love...
I told her it's normal....it's no longer puppy love ...
well at least that's what they say...
come on...we are at our late twenties goodness sake..
maybe ....getting attached is just making all da sense of our age :P
without that magical feeling....we'll still be attached in the end
very happy for her anyway... he's a nice guy :)
I am convinced to say that :P heh :P
lesson to be learn for you guys and girls : never underestimate the power of frenship..
you'll never know where it will lead u...
romance is one of the way :P... good if it's what you wish for..
becareful if it's what you are avoiding from...
then on marriage...
I met my client that day... quite close to her..
everytime I met her...we always talk for the longest time...
this time around.. she talk about her marriage...
amazingly.... she told me how not easy it is to hang on...
if she has a choice...she will let all this go..
just waiting for the day that all her kids can be independent..
then she have nothing more to expect.... she want to quit..
when I hear her on what has happened..
indeed it's not easy for her..
he has not been the best option available...
yet she chose him... and she got to stand to her choices till the end..
best of all...all her sacrifises are for her children..
but what the child says is that :
I don remember ur kindness to me...
I remembered when u hit me.....when u treated me badly..
I remembered all that.... but I don remember ur kindness to me..
how painfull....goodness
I can't believe it myself... she's ur mom... doing her best giving her life for her children...
yet ....look at what she got ?
I did not grow up watching her love... but I can witness her sacrifise...even till today :P ...
marriage... is really not an easy subject to digest...
for her will power to hang on till today... salute Tante :)
I pray I may have the same strength as you...
and be a faithful wife juz as you have been :)
I was walking with Devi that day...
we discuss how we tend to see a person's true color when we are no longer in love with them..
we also discuss how certain ppl have such a high standard and principle on their dream love....
and throw all that standard and principle far far away when they start to fall in love :P
Devi then asked ?
what happen to thos that stand by the principle ce ?
well...they end up like me Dev...still single till today ... HAHHAHAH :p
hanging too tightly to these things call principles......
closing the door of opportunity on the other site...when things don fall to our principle..
when principle...at the end of the day... are just principles...
might not be truth...other that just a standing point of view...
I don say u should not follow me and my principle standing life....
for I can witness that I am more than happy to have live my life standing on my principle..
rather than living not by that...and regret it a zillion times
but I do want you not to worship ur principle..
they can fall anytime.... just like mine did :P
and when that happen ...... u might be shattered ...
juz like me....
Thank God He is good...
I am re-shape into a perfect cutting all over..
given a second chance to believe.... hope....keep the faith..
in a perfect love, marriage, relationship and frenship...
the way He creates them
the way He wants them to be
perfect just like Him
in our daily life to be
bombie {=^o^=}
But off course due to my wonderful internet...
I cannot post it till now :P
anyway: I was looking at my boss that day
and I got down to a point that I have to admit...
He indeed is a changed man...ever since he got married and even more..
when he has kid :P
In this case he change to a better person ....so much better that than who he was ...
he go home early coz : melissa... quick quick..I want to play with my daughter
during work.. he kept saying : melissa.. must help me make money for my daughter...
don be like that melissa.... my daughter and wife eat wad later ?
He told me he need to go buy her daughter shoes..ask me w/ the shoe at the shop opposite is good..... I give up....I have no daughter boss... i don noe this things :D
When he tell me he need to buy mittens.. go baby's department... I cant stop but laughing...
he... at baby's department ?!?!?!... ahhahahaha :P
and he threaten me : don laugh melissa...I noe this things much better than u okay
I guess it's just unbelievable for me the fact that he change to that extend.
This man... my boss..
the same guy that was still flirting w/ girl at marketing department...the hot kampong blonde...just like 2-3 mths before his wedding :P
the one who always play at arcade till early morning 5 am every weekends....
who...sometimes I feel.. took his wife too much for granted :P
I use to think that his gf... who is now his wife....who happen to be the prettiest girl at her bank last time..... is so "dao mei" *unlucky in chinese word*
why in da world she end up with him ? having a relationship for almost 4 years some more...
and not only that she knew all along that he still flirt around when he's w/ her....
she withstand all that... hanging faithful to him... and finally..end up marrying him..
I would have broken up with this kind of man longgggggggggg timeeeeeeeeeeeee before :P
it's just my principal....
but who knows what will happen in the end? He is a changed man now...
he always say that he is a good man......his wife is very lucky to have him as husband... he will not go wrong... and I use to put 100% denial on all that :P no way boss....no way ...:P
I got it wrong....
en I have to say I admire his wife...
My boss did say : his wife knew of what he is capable of..
she knew that he flirts around...but he will not take anyone else to be his wife other than her...
he always said that... she had confidence in him....
even when he did his last "flirting" session with marketing girl....
I ask him ...did your girlfriend (then) noe all bout this ? How would she feel ? how can u be so cruel ?
he said his wife knew....and she still stand there into the marriage..
I salute her courage and trust in love..... loose to her :)
it's not easy...
I always believe one should be really2 careful before marriage..
coz u have a chance to cut off a lifetime misery before that ....
U just have to be suspicious...and no..u don need to put faith and confidence in ur partner before marriage
well maybe half :) .....just nice enough to make it work...
but once u are in the marriage...
U just have to keep the faith... and keep it very tightly.. that ur spouse wont leave u
.. u must close ur eyes.. ears and every of ur senses :P just believe... even if things gone wrong...
faith and trust is the only subtance left to make your marriage works..
well i see now how faith has brought my boss' wife to her happiness statement now
I bet she's happy enough.. knowing that this husband of her... really adores her and her daughter... love change him ? or his daughter change him... i don noe ... haha
anyway on relationship... and frenship...
I just found out recently... there are so many ppl around me... just get attached
Yumiko, Charles, Handoko :P
Yumiko is particularly an interesting story to be told....
she just got attached with her best friend of 7 years..
funny how we always believe that she will end up with him..
and we always ask....why not just him ? if u need to be together w/ someone close enough..
why not w/ this someone that u have been sharing most of your life story with ?
normal: no chemistry..juz frens... the bestest frens of life.. and this that and all those...
and so just to proof our point..they end up together...
and she felt that it was just 70% rational and 30% romance....
thus she felt weird....where's those magical moment and feeling that "Hey..I'm attached u noe ?"
that rosy feeling of a girl in love...
I told her it's normal....it's no longer puppy love ...
well at least that's what they say...
come on...we are at our late twenties goodness sake..
maybe ....getting attached is just making all da sense of our age :P
without that magical feeling....we'll still be attached in the end
very happy for her anyway... he's a nice guy :)
I am convinced to say that :P heh :P
lesson to be learn for you guys and girls : never underestimate the power of frenship..
you'll never know where it will lead u...
romance is one of the way :P... good if it's what you wish for..
becareful if it's what you are avoiding from...
then on marriage...
I met my client that day... quite close to her..
everytime I met her...we always talk for the longest time...
this time around.. she talk about her marriage...
amazingly.... she told me how not easy it is to hang on...
if she has a choice...she will let all this go..
just waiting for the day that all her kids can be independent..
then she have nothing more to expect.... she want to quit..
when I hear her on what has happened..
indeed it's not easy for her..
he has not been the best option available...
yet she chose him... and she got to stand to her choices till the end..
best of all...all her sacrifises are for her children..
but what the child says is that :
I don remember ur kindness to me...
I remembered when u hit me.....when u treated me badly..
I remembered all that.... but I don remember ur kindness to me..
how painfull....goodness
I can't believe it myself... she's ur mom... doing her best giving her life for her children...
yet ....look at what she got ?
I did not grow up watching her love... but I can witness her sacrifise...even till today :P ...
marriage... is really not an easy subject to digest...
for her will power to hang on till today... salute Tante :)
I pray I may have the same strength as you...
and be a faithful wife juz as you have been :)
I was walking with Devi that day...
we discuss how we tend to see a person's true color when we are no longer in love with them..
we also discuss how certain ppl have such a high standard and principle on their dream love....
and throw all that standard and principle far far away when they start to fall in love :P
Devi then asked ?
what happen to thos that stand by the principle ce ?
well...they end up like me Dev...still single till today ... HAHHAHAH :p
hanging too tightly to these things call principles......
closing the door of opportunity on the other site...when things don fall to our principle..
when principle...at the end of the day... are just principles...
might not be truth...other that just a standing point of view...
I don say u should not follow me and my principle standing life....
for I can witness that I am more than happy to have live my life standing on my principle..
rather than living not by that...and regret it a zillion times
but I do want you not to worship ur principle..
they can fall anytime.... just like mine did :P
and when that happen ...... u might be shattered ...
juz like me....
Thank God He is good...
I am re-shape into a perfect cutting all over..
given a second chance to believe.... hope....keep the faith..
in a perfect love, marriage, relationship and frenship...
the way He creates them
the way He wants them to be
perfect just like Him
in our daily life to be
bombie {=^o^=}
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