Gift for you

Dearest my beloved Papa and Mama,
I really pray, for all that we've gone through, the thoughts of double happiness you've had consecutively 2 years in a row every September of the year will bring not only bring smile to your lips but tears in your eyes, warm feeling in your heart, and a touch of God's blessing in your life.

For whatever things that took place, we've finally reached a breathing point to fuel our energy for another decade to come. I hope you realize, it's all worth the price. Your sacrifise, your investment, your tears, your heart, your energy, your life.....none wasted :)

Enjoy and be proud of this double happinesse we present you Pa, Ma. For it is only a gift from the Heavenly above for us :) Congrats once again. I hope to I can be blessed enough to enjoy the same double happiness one day:)

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You are
The last man standing in my longest history
The answer to my lifetime long awaited prayer
The one who holds the key to my future door,
Indeed which door you open matters

In your hands,
Lies lots of my fond memories, I've unknowingly kept so dearly

By all means
You are who you are
My last confidantes
My very dear friend

With all faith
I stand to believe you'll walk the best way for us
Harmoniously according in His way

I'll follow Him too ....anyway :P
He who matters the most
He my most dearly precious

bombie {=^o^=}
9.18.2008

Si lampu lagi

started with my bathroom lamp that was suddenly shut down yesterday's morning..
Catherine finally heard my statement which I have not been saying for a long time :

" Adohh.. puji Tuhan akhirnya beres jg ini lampu. Gua paling bete ganti lampu rumah, and dari dulu gua tau kl gua butuh cowok sebenernya cuman gara gara masalah ganti lampu ini... heh :P paling trauma deh gua"

That....sets her laughing :P

Emang bener gua beneran beteeeeeeeeeee tiap kali mikirin :
Ganti lampu rumah
Benerin internet rumah
Angkat kardus berat kl pindahan....
kl sampe kejadian Bishan NPCC itu terulang kembali...
Keamanan diri gua wkt gua akan ngajuin masalah gua ke court dalam waktu dekat ini...

En everytime I need to do any of the above.. I know I need a man in my life :P
But then...setelah gua cool down... dan berpikir secara jernih..

Actually....all this complaining of changing the light bulb will not even come out if I have a high stools or ladder at home :P Not necessarily a man

All this will not even come out if I am taller en slimmer..harusnya cukup gampang buat ganti si lampu itu :P

Jadi..kesimpulannya ga butuh cowok lg dong ?
erm......I think I'm just reasoning... HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAH

bombie {=^o^=}

don wanna see you now.....

Youth Conference is... finally over :)
Another good one...... not topping the best one still :) *undignified*
Just glad is over and done ...... I rest my case... have given my best :)

Harris is good btw, as always..
Wad's left from Youth conference is ...my insomniac :P
hooooooooooo though badan capek kayak kena geprak kayu :P

lastly : my wish is to see more of a listener :
For faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ.
So .. listen ... :)

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I always wonder what will happen when I see you again
Though I come to realize that many of my reaction differs depending on the situation
Most of the time.. it came down to one action that I always know I will do
Running away...

Why ?
Coz it hurts so much to see you again ?
Coz of fear on wad will happen next ?
Coz of the phobia you've created whenever your presence is around me ?
That my minds, thoughts, sights....are so much absorbed back into you ?
Why do I run ? .... why am I so frightened ? Why my soul shrinks ?

I don't know.... again en again... I never know..
No answer till date.....what happened and why it happened...
No clear answer till date........
What makes our story written in my history...
No....no anwer yet..

And I will keep running away...everytime we meet....
With a hope that I will never bump into you anytime real soon...
that always leaves me with this strange heart beats... that I dont understand..
added with all the question that follows....

I never doubt u're my first..
One that lasted that Long enough...

Good thing you'll never be my last...
Less the sun rises from the west
And roses turns to blue....

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an excerpt from 2006:

Life....
Like it's never been harder
My why is never answered
And in the end ...
wait... will there be an end ?

No idea...
Full stop perhaps can refresh and helps me
Ya...like it does ?!?!?!

Was it ever wrong for me to save my wounded soul from being broken again ?
A woman of God who does not see the passion of a Prince of Kingdon of heaven in you..
Has a Princess ever suffer this bad from a stranger standing in borderline of heaven and devil's kingdom? One who was a servant leader in King's altar, a Prince of His own?

I hope not...
Let me be the only one...
The only Princess to suffer
of a forbidden desire of her soul that ties her up

One that she chose to pursue
and one that she needs to kill
over and over..and over again

When is never a choice to take
It's a decision one made

Despite the pain
Seems all in vain




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2008: No labor put in prayer is ever in Vain .....

bombie {=^o^=}

listen

I know I have long let you go
But I wonder nowadays..
Have I really forgiven you ?

..........................................
back from youth conference day 1..
all I'm asking now...

How hard is it...to just listen ?

bombie {=^o^=}

Pardon me

Pardon me
For being naive
For keep believing
Keep dreaming

Pardon me
For not being able to shout out the truth
Though it might be something that's in my heart

Pardon me
For keeping so much wall
To protect what I feel is so important
Though they tell me that I've been fooled

Pardon me
For keep forgiving
and fall on the same trap all over again

Pardon me
For being so easily forgiving
Though might not be that easy in forgetting
On pains brought on the past

Pardon me
For not listening to your advise
Though I know you've come from a reasonable background

Pardon me
For not being so carefull myself
Am I messing up my task as a good stewart ?

Pardon me
For standing firm by the side
Of those who hurt me the most

Pardon me
For not being able to cry my heart
And throw my soul.
The black part....

Pardon me
For not being able to walk in your way
That 100% should fortunates me....
Yet torn me apart too

Pardon me
For not even able to lift
Even just a thought
Of doing them harms

Pardon me
For avoiding conflicts
And acting so calm
When thunder storm are running all around

Pardon me
For being so cautious...
So silly
So unreasonable
So foolish
So fragile
So strict
So stubborn
So immature
So wrong
in the right kind of wrong

Lastly
Totally, please just forgive me
For acting like a fool
As if I'm the mother
Binded by fond of bloodlines
Keep believing, keep having faith, keep fooling myself, keep granting the hundre-th chance

That someday they will change... for the better of themselves
And perhaps most of all, they change to redeem me from the ties that bind me in my own belief and stand...strongly on their side.....
Along the process, I have grown up together too.

Once in a while, those awaited prayers do come true.
And tears of happiness overflows the corner of my eyes...

Precious Ones, I adore you
Highest King, I honor YOU

bombie {=^o^=}

guardian angel

for most of my life...
I' m not the : lucky Luke in town..

But just for a day.....
I feel it's so unbelievable........

I run all the way to Millenia Tower for an urgent instruction to be done...
And it's DONE :) 2 days turnaround time is spectacular *normal 2 weeks*

Second department to be chased after: and again done :) Smoothly...
last news on the day: ST Regis is waiting for us...
I run and hug Cheryl....

Dear Angels...from SLAU, CLOU, RSU, and Mama Teo
and my guardian angels that's overtiming right now ....
Thanks ...for making my day....
Thanks for making my week..
Thanks for making my month...
Thanks for making my 4.5 years memorable

Amy Tan's last day after 35 years with Citi...
Youxiang, Terence, Quek last day with Operations....
All the best people have embarked into new regime..

I suppose unknowingly or clearly ...I had, have been, am....moving on too

bombie {=^o^=}

tentang cinta lagi

Regardless how many times it has befallen someone
A heart broken will always be painful
A hope unfulfilled remains empty
A dream shattered remains threathening

Many tried, but none succeed
To guide how to love and lost
without a drop of hurt

That's how precious love is
To have it will be simply a grace
Losing it will be as good as dying

Bible is true:
Song of Solomon 8:6
Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.

Dan sebenarnya: mencintai itu memang menyeramkan :P
and sebenernya lagi : emang Cinta itu ga selalu harus memiliki
and lebih bener lagi : cinta emang harus selalu mengalah...

*Nongol Andreas : memang sejak dulu beginilah Cinta.. penderitaan tiada akhir*

Sept 2' 08
bombie {=^o^=}