It's been a bleeding week in office
They've started the dice rolling
No one is too saved to fail
Wad are the rules of this game now?
I don't know...
How can some player win and some other lost...
At one fort : The best soldiers are shot...
On the other fort: Best ones kept alive...
Wad guideline did her majesty rule ?
Well....It's a game called life...
and it always have to go on...
like wad they said : life has to go on..and on.....
Regardless how bloodless u are
Sometime I wish life can rest for a while
And take a look back on it's ground
I told my frightened mate: we just have to keep our cool....
Keep fighting this fire.... this war...this game.....
I told her so....when in just a moment a while after
I bleed....deeply....while tryin hard to keep my cool
How do you do so when u saw them shot at your very eye?
Picking up their brave story
How do you walk on and keep your cool ?
Rest well my frenz..
You are forgiven....and forever never forgotten...
I wish you a better life....in a new journey to come....
Regret this battle not..... you came out stronger than you could have ever fought...
Someday we'll be there
Out of this game.....
Out of this cruelty...
A land called eternity....
Let's keep the last chance..
Last hope
Final faith...
and yes......life goes on....
bombie {=^o^=}
in remembrence of my Citi collegues
may our path cross again....and I shall see u in a brighter future
Friday, November 28, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Citi
Am I being naive, or once again I'm just the slow girl being left behind from the latest movement and news ?
The talks on Citi....goes on and on...
My citi collegues en frens from far2 away building have been emailing all around
Are we safe ? Are you safe ? How's the mood in Caps xquare?
It does not change much here except that Citi share plunge from 11 to 10 to 6 to 4...
And the nonstop phone line that rings endlessly......questioning Citi's safety...
plus...the so called "bank-run" theory that they teach u only in economics books...
seems like I'm facing the real fact one where ppl start to withdraw all their savings here .....
many....of my collegues... my family.... start to worry on Citi's move...
I'm afraid I'm being naive.....for having this peacefullness...
and kept telling them...and myself...
Citi will juz be all right.... or let's juz say... I will be allright...
We...who put our hopes high to the realm above heaven..will juz be all right...
Regardless the season....
Bless Citi..
Bless this place where You have placed me
Bless my surroundings who are in worry
And allow me to shine out Your glory
Bless this company that You have used to bless me
Where I learn and grow in diversity
Of lessons and theory made into reality
And bring me nearer to a phase of maturity
Bless Citi...
bombie {=^o^=}
The talks on Citi....goes on and on...
My citi collegues en frens from far2 away building have been emailing all around
Are we safe ? Are you safe ? How's the mood in Caps xquare?
It does not change much here except that Citi share plunge from 11 to 10 to 6 to 4...
And the nonstop phone line that rings endlessly......questioning Citi's safety...
plus...the so called "bank-run" theory that they teach u only in economics books...
seems like I'm facing the real fact one where ppl start to withdraw all their savings here .....
many....of my collegues... my family.... start to worry on Citi's move...
I'm afraid I'm being naive.....for having this peacefullness...
and kept telling them...and myself...
Citi will juz be all right.... or let's juz say... I will be allright...
We...who put our hopes high to the realm above heaven..will juz be all right...
Regardless the season....
Bless Citi..
Bless this place where You have placed me
Bless my surroundings who are in worry
And allow me to shine out Your glory
Bless this company that You have used to bless me
Where I learn and grow in diversity
Of lessons and theory made into reality
And bring me nearer to a phase of maturity
Bless Citi...
bombie {=^o^=}
Sunday, November 16, 2008
GIRL power !!
For most of the time this year..
I have quite lots of bad experience..
Well: biggest one was the home matter..
Then...as some have heard : my office matter...
Plus some other things.....
So those who still believe in SHIO..
Let met tell u : Don't!!! Prediction for Chicken this year is GOOD :P
See wad those prediction gives u :P.. heh :P
I sense it then since end of 2007
2008 will be tough.. indeed it is
But one sweet things emerge in this stormy season of mine.
GIRL power !!!! I'm not referring to my power only..
I'm talking about:
Dinner with Kiko Yap, Hui Ee, Mama Teo
CNY lunch at Hachi2 TA...
The sweet birthday surprise celebrz from ELG:)
The good time we enjoyed so much on Elsa's wedding last June, where 9 girls shared 3 rooms together
Under the stars moments at Danau Toba
ELG's St Regis night..
A night of shopping and makeover where the girls stayed over our serangoon palace where they learn my "mooncake" culture...oh that was real fun :)
And outing with my couzinz and frenz at Indo :) all galz
Above all:
Momentz where we share, break, and strengthen each other in our spiritual journey the way only a girl could understand....
I enjoyed so so so much those "girlie" momentz :)
And I thank God for every minute that I'm born a woman...
bombie {=^o^=}
I have quite lots of bad experience..
Well: biggest one was the home matter..
Then...as some have heard : my office matter...
Plus some other things.....
So those who still believe in SHIO..
Let met tell u : Don't!!! Prediction for Chicken this year is GOOD :P
See wad those prediction gives u :P.. heh :P
I sense it then since end of 2007
2008 will be tough.. indeed it is
But one sweet things emerge in this stormy season of mine.
GIRL power !!!! I'm not referring to my power only..
I'm talking about:
Dinner with Kiko Yap, Hui Ee, Mama Teo
CNY lunch at Hachi2 TA...
The sweet birthday surprise celebrz from ELG:)
The good time we enjoyed so much on Elsa's wedding last June, where 9 girls shared 3 rooms together
Under the stars moments at Danau Toba
ELG's St Regis night..
A night of shopping and makeover where the girls stayed over our serangoon palace where they learn my "mooncake" culture...oh that was real fun :)
And outing with my couzinz and frenz at Indo :) all galz
Above all:
Momentz where we share, break, and strengthen each other in our spiritual journey the way only a girl could understand....
I enjoyed so so so much those "girlie" momentz :)
And I thank God for every minute that I'm born a woman...
bombie {=^o^=}
Friday, November 7, 2008
good news
Remember those days where you heard the stories of your friends who were once some sort of the "hopeless rude no future" kids in school, turned back from their wrongful ways, touched by God, then suddenly have an amazing life in Him ?
Well, I heard lots of that wonderful testimonies when I entered NUS and got born again. There were lots and lots of my "unbelievably-oh-my-they- can-repent-too" true stories. I supposed I'm one of them : HAHA !!
Sadly, not all of them who have turned new leaf, stay the same fresh leafs and re-juvenating. Some decayed along the process, some withered, some gone with the wind. Following that I had a period where I didn't receive that much of this living testimony.
Then came that day, where my cousin who is now at USA, MSN-ed me, asking me how am I doin. I was quite surprised that she MSN-ed me. Well, she's not exactly near my age if not to say she's born in 1988 ? I might be able to get along with TLG members who are that age..but when u know ur cousin..it feels like they are forever "our-super-much-younger-don-think-we-can-ever-get-along" cousin.
Anyway, I've asked her : I heard she had an American boyfriend. So was it still on ? Then she told me it's over. When I ask the reason, she said: He's not the one God prepared for me, and I know someone far better is waiting.
I was again... quite taken aback. Juz like any other Christian who will be careful to ask the sensitive question about faith and beliefs, I asked her.."Oh..you are talking like a true Christian. Are you a believer now ? I heard your University is a good Christian school. That's why ur mom chose it. She feel saved there, though she's not a Christian herself" And then..she told me everything. She has come to know Jesus personaly in USA, she's now a born again Christian, and she's serving God fervently at a Local Church at Pensacola. Now that's what I called TERRIFIC UNEXPECTED GOOD NEWS !!
U see, this cousin of mine, is a die hard boyband loverz. All she can think of was only MTV, backstreet boyz, westlife, blue and gazilion other boybands. Her pin up, poster, magazines, CD, VCD, DVD, albums are everywhere in her room. All she ever worshipped was, internet, technology, grammy, Oscar, westerner kind of life. She so disregarded Asian. Her english proficiency is amazing. Her pronunciation, you can feel as if you are talking with someone who has been living in Britain for the rest of her life. And for most of the time, she only think about boyz, how to be cool and hip in American European style, the music concert of this band, and u name it. At least that's what I always thought bout her which were confirmed by her parents.
So to hear her telling me she's now a believer ? No...it's hard if not impossible to imagine. But so, okie. I take that as a piece of amazing good news, yet somehow some part of me still wanted to test the authenticity of her testimony to me.
Well I need not to wait that long. Today my aunty called me and tell me that she's quite worry to hear that my cousin is considering to instead of completing her current degree in English Literature, she wanted to switch to take complete a degree in School for Misionaries instead, that when she graduate she can be Misionary for God. And WOW again !! This time...I'm shocked.
To give me more on the details, my aunty read for me her email to her. And my cousin email's is really, really, amazing. She's trying to explain her turning point, her meeting with Jesus, her desire, her passion, her love for God, which motivated her to serve Him, to want to surrender all her life for Him, following Him till the rest of her life. This type of love is something that can't be comprehend by my Aunt, and she knew that well. That's why she's trying so hard to explain,how she long for her mother to meet God and that she will be able to understand her too. Hearing her email content, I feel as if hearing an excerpt of my conversation to my Mom few years back. I have said exactly the same thing she wrote.
I am one hundred and ten percent convinced, she's a born again Christian : PRAISE GOD !!!!
I can't wait to meet her and ask her about her ministry in USA, how was it doing, and what God has been doing in her life....
The same question goes to you now: what God has been doing in your life ?
To some people :
It's easy to seek Him in times of trouble.
And forget about Him when things are good.
To some other: it's the other way around.
They worship His blessings.
And left Him when times are bad.
For the rest: well in the end times, love grows cold.
Thus say the bible: in all things, Give Thanks !!
For I am more than just sure to say that God must have done something, and that something is nothing less than Awesomely Great: in your life..and mine..
Wads ur story ? I wanna hear...
bombie {=^o^=}
Well, I heard lots of that wonderful testimonies when I entered NUS and got born again. There were lots and lots of my "unbelievably-oh-my-they- can-repent-too" true stories. I supposed I'm one of them : HAHA !!
Sadly, not all of them who have turned new leaf, stay the same fresh leafs and re-juvenating. Some decayed along the process, some withered, some gone with the wind. Following that I had a period where I didn't receive that much of this living testimony.
Then came that day, where my cousin who is now at USA, MSN-ed me, asking me how am I doin. I was quite surprised that she MSN-ed me. Well, she's not exactly near my age if not to say she's born in 1988 ? I might be able to get along with TLG members who are that age..but when u know ur cousin..it feels like they are forever "our-super-much-younger-don-think-we-can-ever-get-along" cousin.
Anyway, I've asked her : I heard she had an American boyfriend. So was it still on ? Then she told me it's over. When I ask the reason, she said: He's not the one God prepared for me, and I know someone far better is waiting.
I was again... quite taken aback. Juz like any other Christian who will be careful to ask the sensitive question about faith and beliefs, I asked her.."Oh..you are talking like a true Christian. Are you a believer now ? I heard your University is a good Christian school. That's why ur mom chose it. She feel saved there, though she's not a Christian herself" And then..she told me everything. She has come to know Jesus personaly in USA, she's now a born again Christian, and she's serving God fervently at a Local Church at Pensacola. Now that's what I called TERRIFIC UNEXPECTED GOOD NEWS !!
U see, this cousin of mine, is a die hard boyband loverz. All she can think of was only MTV, backstreet boyz, westlife, blue and gazilion other boybands. Her pin up, poster, magazines, CD, VCD, DVD, albums are everywhere in her room. All she ever worshipped was, internet, technology, grammy, Oscar, westerner kind of life. She so disregarded Asian. Her english proficiency is amazing. Her pronunciation, you can feel as if you are talking with someone who has been living in Britain for the rest of her life. And for most of the time, she only think about boyz, how to be cool and hip in American European style, the music concert of this band, and u name it. At least that's what I always thought bout her which were confirmed by her parents.
So to hear her telling me she's now a believer ? No...it's hard if not impossible to imagine. But so, okie. I take that as a piece of amazing good news, yet somehow some part of me still wanted to test the authenticity of her testimony to me.
Well I need not to wait that long. Today my aunty called me and tell me that she's quite worry to hear that my cousin is considering to instead of completing her current degree in English Literature, she wanted to switch to take complete a degree in School for Misionaries instead, that when she graduate she can be Misionary for God. And WOW again !! This time...I'm shocked.
To give me more on the details, my aunty read for me her email to her. And my cousin email's is really, really, amazing. She's trying to explain her turning point, her meeting with Jesus, her desire, her passion, her love for God, which motivated her to serve Him, to want to surrender all her life for Him, following Him till the rest of her life. This type of love is something that can't be comprehend by my Aunt, and she knew that well. That's why she's trying so hard to explain,how she long for her mother to meet God and that she will be able to understand her too. Hearing her email content, I feel as if hearing an excerpt of my conversation to my Mom few years back. I have said exactly the same thing she wrote.
I am one hundred and ten percent convinced, she's a born again Christian : PRAISE GOD !!!!
I can't wait to meet her and ask her about her ministry in USA, how was it doing, and what God has been doing in her life....
The same question goes to you now: what God has been doing in your life ?
To some people :
It's easy to seek Him in times of trouble.
And forget about Him when things are good.
To some other: it's the other way around.
They worship His blessings.
And left Him when times are bad.
For the rest: well in the end times, love grows cold.
Thus say the bible: in all things, Give Thanks !!
For I am more than just sure to say that God must have done something, and that something is nothing less than Awesomely Great: in your life..and mine..
Wads ur story ? I wanna hear...
bombie {=^o^=}
maybe...juz maybe..
Back!
Oh how I drag myself...
But it helps the fact that I landed on terminal 3...
And the friendly Cab driver who picked me up...
Despite some hiccups..
Qatar airways has been good remedy too:)
Esp: the food :) A good choice indeed
Hopeful now..
Perhaps....there's a ray of hope Singapore ?
Will you welcome me with a brighter Sun and Shinier Sky?
Like the Diamond Castle I watched in Barbie juz today....
*erm.. ya I love watchin barbies cartoon :p..Any problem ?*
Perhaps...
Oh....How I beg....
Please be good to me this season...Singapore :)
bombie {=^o^=}
Oh how I drag myself...
But it helps the fact that I landed on terminal 3...
And the friendly Cab driver who picked me up...
Despite some hiccups..
Qatar airways has been good remedy too:)
Esp: the food :) A good choice indeed
Hopeful now..
Perhaps....there's a ray of hope Singapore ?
Will you welcome me with a brighter Sun and Shinier Sky?
Like the Diamond Castle I watched in Barbie juz today....
*erm.. ya I love watchin barbies cartoon :p..Any problem ?*
Perhaps...
Oh....How I beg....
Please be good to me this season...Singapore :)
bombie {=^o^=}
Thursday, November 6, 2008
y ?
I'm not ready to go back..
Juz not yet...
everything built in 4.5 years
fall into pieces in
1 sms, 1 call, and 7 page of a memo
No tears fall
Juz a heart that beats like drum
No finger pointing
Yet I'm too weak to keep this in my hardisk
Guess I'll juz be running on my adrenaline....
Can I not come back?
bombie {=^o^=}
Juz not yet...
everything built in 4.5 years
fall into pieces in
1 sms, 1 call, and 7 page of a memo
No tears fall
Juz a heart that beats like drum
No finger pointing
Yet I'm too weak to keep this in my hardisk
Guess I'll juz be running on my adrenaline....
Can I not come back?
bombie {=^o^=}
Monday, November 3, 2008
only human
one last line I remembered from my conversation with iot :
"Somebody asks to be a super woman, somebody is...given the chance to be the super woman
Just that..that somebody..is simply not a superwoman...en she will never be.....
then come the song :
I'm not a superwoman...
I'm not that kind of girl...
who u can let go and think that everything is okay
Boy...I'm only human
nanananananna "
bombie {=^o^=}
"Somebody asks to be a super woman, somebody is...given the chance to be the super woman
Just that..that somebody..is simply not a superwoman...en she will never be.....
then come the song :
I'm not a superwoman...
I'm not that kind of girl...
who u can let go and think that everything is okay
Boy...I'm only human
nanananananna "
bombie {=^o^=}
wazzup
Okie... it's almost 2 mths since the last time this blog is updated...
simple reason: there's only 24 hours in a day....and there's only that much a woman can take....
there's only 1 me..and I can't divide myself not even into 2 parts :P..
So...why was I in silent ? coz sleeping is good to keep u alive...and that's exactly wad I needed to keep me goin:P.. at least from the last day I update the blog....my life has been one roller coaster ride :)
Let's see:
St Regis, Fendo's wedding, Chiang's wedding, A-cheng's wedding, Office madness, Financial market crash, and then......packing to go home :)
Seriously, I need to stop for awhile..and that's exactly wad I am havin right now on my annual 2 weeks nothing-to-do-juz-bumming-around holiday...
But it's kind of differrent this year...usually...annually...sadly.....I always have broken heart to mend..broken dreams to be straightened..broken wish to be taken away...new hopes, vision, and mission to come again......a kind of re-charging time...a time of the year I always look forward for myself into.....a resting time....
But this time..okie: basically, there's no broken heart to begin with...everything seems fine...but... fine it is not....or so it seems the last time I left Singapore...so...let's face it...my battle field is in Singapore:P heh :P a land that has shaped me to a better soul...and vanishes my 8 years in a bling :P.....where have all those days gone ? seriously....I'm an adult now :P I started to see lines on my face :P OH NO !!...
Anyway...For the first time ever.......I miss my broken-hearted moments...for when my heart is broken...I hear Him loudest......and that's exactly why I manage re-charge, re-fuel, re-load every year....moving on from glory to glory..juz like all that have been testified....
Not that I'm asking to be broken hearted again..... But u see ?
I don't want to play safe in this middle field....somehow it's just not me...it's either I'm all in....or all out....You don like the lukewarmers too right Daddy ? Playin safe doesn't bring me alive.....And I dont think I'll survive 2009 if I am not alive.......2008 is tough enough...en each day passed...my hurdle bar is higher and higher...
But I noe I have been playin too much too...too many games on my hands.... I've got to learn to let go....hm :P.....basically...let's summarise this : it's complicated :P and I think I complicate my own matters too anyway...
Coach..I need a big Time Out..before I'm back in field again...playing the next round......living this game called life....running towards the crown of eternity......Book of life....I look for your guidance:)
And Team-mates....hope you will still be there when I'm back in shape:) I promise you....Our best Coach of life will train me...personally...for He is my one..beloved....personal.....God :) and we'll be rockin again :)
niwei:..back to Jakarta...it's nice to meet u again Stefan....one rare coincidence...2 strangers meet....2 strangers greet....and btw ......thanks for a good talk :)
bombie {=^o^=}
re-aligning the game plan :)
11.04.08 Jakarta
my humble room
simple reason: there's only 24 hours in a day....and there's only that much a woman can take....
there's only 1 me..and I can't divide myself not even into 2 parts :P..
So...why was I in silent ? coz sleeping is good to keep u alive...and that's exactly wad I needed to keep me goin:P.. at least from the last day I update the blog....my life has been one roller coaster ride :)
Let's see:
St Regis, Fendo's wedding, Chiang's wedding, A-cheng's wedding, Office madness, Financial market crash, and then......packing to go home :)
Seriously, I need to stop for awhile..and that's exactly wad I am havin right now on my annual 2 weeks nothing-to-do-juz-bumming-around holiday...
But it's kind of differrent this year...usually...annually...sadly.....I always have broken heart to mend..broken dreams to be straightened..broken wish to be taken away...new hopes, vision, and mission to come again......a kind of re-charging time...a time of the year I always look forward for myself into.....a resting time....
But this time..okie: basically, there's no broken heart to begin with...everything seems fine...but... fine it is not....or so it seems the last time I left Singapore...so...let's face it...my battle field is in Singapore:P heh :P a land that has shaped me to a better soul...and vanishes my 8 years in a bling :P.....where have all those days gone ? seriously....I'm an adult now :P I started to see lines on my face :P OH NO !!...
Anyway...For the first time ever.......I miss my broken-hearted moments...for when my heart is broken...I hear Him loudest......and that's exactly why I manage re-charge, re-fuel, re-load every year....moving on from glory to glory..juz like all that have been testified....
Not that I'm asking to be broken hearted again..... But u see ?
I don't want to play safe in this middle field....somehow it's just not me...it's either I'm all in....or all out....You don like the lukewarmers too right Daddy ? Playin safe doesn't bring me alive.....And I dont think I'll survive 2009 if I am not alive.......2008 is tough enough...en each day passed...my hurdle bar is higher and higher...
But I noe I have been playin too much too...too many games on my hands.... I've got to learn to let go....hm :P.....basically...let's summarise this : it's complicated :P and I think I complicate my own matters too anyway...
Coach..I need a big Time Out..before I'm back in field again...playing the next round......living this game called life....running towards the crown of eternity......Book of life....I look for your guidance:)
And Team-mates....hope you will still be there when I'm back in shape:) I promise you....Our best Coach of life will train me...personally...for He is my one..beloved....personal.....God :) and we'll be rockin again :)
niwei:..back to Jakarta...it's nice to meet u again Stefan....one rare coincidence...2 strangers meet....2 strangers greet....and btw ......thanks for a good talk :)
bombie {=^o^=}
re-aligning the game plan :)
11.04.08 Jakarta
my humble room
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