mistakes

People make mistakes

I made one 4 years ago
which caused me quite a deep hurt and built a huge gap
that took 5 mths for me to finally recover
connecting the silence in between

What a fool... I thought..
And what a fool.... I think of it...now...
For me to allow myself to fall into the same mistake....

I can actually runaway
and save the trouble of crawling for recovery

But how do I do so now ?



Chorus :
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one waltz away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

How can I not love you
when you are gone.....

bombie {=^o^=}

chief of "Blessed"

To the chief of the blessed
The favored and loved one
By God above, and all of us who are blessed by you
David Chandra

Hp birthday Captain
May ur years be filled with God's divine intervention
As He leads you in walking His purpose of your creation

May you continue to be a source of blessing to everyone of us
May you be wiser ...and richer each day...
Filled with joy and happiness

And then : bagi bagi ke kita semua... HAHA:)

Sekian...
Just wait for the Tiramisu revenge
And congrats buat "jadi-jadian"nya
*Peace*

bombie {=^o^=}

Friends

Most of the time when I go home for 2/3 weeks in Indo
I'll get to watch Friends re-run every nite 7 PM.
It's the best feel good serials for me

The good things about Friends is
It's not because they are good looking
Or anal, weird, nerd, cocky, snobbish

The good thing about Friends is the message...
That somehow these bunch of Friends always manage to make the best out of the worst
They seem never to take themself quite seriously.. I think this is the key...
No matter how sucky the situation they are facing
They always manage to make a joke out of it

Making life bearable, fun, and yeah... worth to live..
They might not be that close of a friend before the serials starts
But the actor & actress are walking out of the serials
Being the best of friends for life...

It is definitely the best US serial I have ever watched
Funniest...most entertaining..
and if I can live a life as fun as they can be...
I'll be glad....

Thank God the basic requirements are here with me:
FRIENDS :)
*I'll be there for you*


bombie {=^o^=}
point blank
don want to think otherwise

one more time

If anything ever happened
It's was Christ touched Melissa Surya again one more time on April 25' 2009
Instead of what the sermon said the day....that taught everyone
To be the active non stop God looking people......

So when Chris Long asked
"How many of you have touched God today?"
I could not answer "I have"
This what came out " He has managed to touch me over and again one more time"

Perhaps I have unrealizingly done my part
to be broken..

grumbled, disgruntled, in pain, in question of justice and fairness,
of rights, of what's deserved, what's normal, what's reasonable, what made sense....
what has happened ? which part is wrong ? what can I do ? How can I get through?

oh Why ?
Came with a luggage full of complaints... overweight, excess baggages

only those with a broken heart could seek Him they said....
only true.....

one touch by God is worth more than anything in the world we could ever attain of
never doubt that....

so indeed:
You are the way the truth and the light
I live by faith and not by sight..for You
I'm living (& standing in) all (of this faith.....only) for You

who can deny the good works You have made in us ?
and if I were to live this life again...
I'll still choose You....I'll still follow You..
I'll still fall in love over and over again to You

bombie {=^o^=}
gratefull to be called His daughter, friend and beloved

wad a differrence a day made

what a day...

sometimes
God is fairly unfair
and unfairly...fair

what a day


Hp birthday God's precious one
Rani:) U are never not a special someone... not a single second...
to me, to us, to Him :)

bombie {=^o^=}

sorrie

Physically, I'm healed
Emotionally, last month MC still makes some mark

I don't know where to put the blame

Should I blame the wall, that is never invisible from the very first day it was built ?
Yet was invisible to us previously .... till recently when I felt it's bite
Though we are separated even less than 2 metres away....
Felt like living in the other side your world each time our eyes met

Should I blame the arrangement, and the arranger ?
Or is it, our limitation to stand for freedom of will, freedom to choose, binded by cast system ?

In the end, I blame myself over and over again
For feeding my bleeding wounds with stab of knife
leaving this hurt..unhealed...

I lost my smile...she said..
well here's why =P

mel {=^o^=}
is still the same girl inside, when will u see that ?

1st Love

Original version by Nikka Costa
Pirated version by Lissa Surya

*Second verse*

Mirror on the wall
Does he care at all..
Will he ever notice me ?
Could he ever call ?

Tell me Teddy Bear
Why love is so unfair
Will I ever find a way ?
And answer to my prayer ?

Chorus:
(But anyway) It's (not even) my 1st love
(It certainly was not) what I'm dreaming of
When I go to bed
When I lay (or cover) my head upon the pillow (with another pillow)
(Yet still I) don't know what to do (till now)

For (it's definitely not) my 1st love
(By the way) Isn't I'm (no longer) too young
(They said she) doesn't even know... (well that was then)
Wish that I could (never have to) show him my feelings
Cause (anyway) I'm (not) feeling my 1st love



bombie {=^o^=}
inspired by IPOD library
How a simple song tune throw a daze of memory
Telling a story on how differrent one life can be
Ever since things speed off from puberty

?

It's nothing.. I know..
Yet I just don't like this feeling

bombie {=^o^=}

near

juz wanna draw near
like never before I hear
never even as clear
like this way I feel

I'm in draught...
so thirsty

bombie {=^o^=}

Love left

Judging by what we are learning recently
From Max Lucado's "A Love worth giving"
I know I dont have much love left within me

However,
I stand to believe that
Whatever love left inside this heart
Though imperfect
Is still good enough to bring me there
If that's the path You are moving me towards

And if that's Your will
just let me know
I will follow

For it's a place where I know for sure
That my Love will grow daily even more
Out of compassion for Your wonderful creation
Left alone cruelly with some ungrateful action

I know I dont have much love left within me
Whatever remains hope it suffices thee

bombie {=^o^=}

Justice

The idea of justice perturbs me lately
Is there anything left exist ? Or extinct it has been ?

This comes from me, the cheated party
Most know what happened to me last year
Did nothing wrong, being trustworthy and gullible
And see what the world serve me with
I lost my money, my trust, and my confidence in ppl
Thank God I never let me loose my own value

Just then, I watched CSI last night
Even the serial depicted that the righteous don't always walk out as winner
Try to find loopholes in law, and you might just understand how easy it is to cheat ppl
And still walk away freely, happily, comfortably. Untouch by human law.
Just look at my landlord, and all the burried cases of rental disputes.
So, are you following the world then ?

Seriously, it is a crooked place we are livin
The one that's coming to it's end
Heh....sometimes... I just stop myself from asking
Where is justice ?

I know that our God, is a just God though
So I know none can, and none will...escape the day
When the crooked justice is finally being served
I'll be there watching for my own unjust things that I might have done unknowingly being judged too

But for now
Count me out of this league
Of gangsters, mafia, and dark side underworld practises
Too hurtful to remember
Too displeasing to forget

bombie {=^o^=}

of great Joy on sweetness

I watched: Pride and Prejudice on Rijo's recommendation....
VCD...so the text is available, Thank God for that.

It must have been the most extensive, comprehensive, lavish, stylish English language movie I have ever had the enjoyment to watch and admire aside from Midsummers Night dream and Romeo and Juliet upon which the beauty of Shakespeare's poetry and literature is far beyond your humble maiden's modest understanding.

Of such occurance of gladness in the middle of hot summer midnight below your humble maiden's rooftop, is a grace indeed.

"You have bewitched me, my heart, body and soul"

To be loved with such a grace, courage, and loyal faithfullnes proven from an honored, high society cut, blue blood gentleman of no less, worthy of his country's praise......of whom risked all his possession and noble stature to win a drop of her affection........ Which maiden whose heart should not be enchanted by such a beauty of a love so bold ?

U are...my noble gentleman

bombie {=^o^=}

most precious

David told us in FA tonight
that God is asking.. what is our most precious that we are holding on right now

honestly....
I really don noe wads the answer......
Parents? Family ? Comfort zone ? Good life ? Job ? Dreams ? Hope ?
I kept searching to find sth that can shake me deeply into emotional tears and fear..
still...silence...

then I realize...
throughout my life..
if there's any lesson I have been learning..
is to learn to let go those I hold dearest...
and understanding that ...

I am mostly scared to loose YOU....
and when I think of that... I start to be shaken...

I don want to loose YOU...not a single day... not a single second..

bombie {=^o^=}