Tuesday, March 31, 2009

life is good

You called today, and you asked how's life
my answer : life is good

To my surprise, you were surprised by my answer. I asked you why ?
You said: sounds too optimistic. Most of the answer you heard, is not that good.
I wonder if you have associated with my girlfriend who always look at the glass as three quarter empty when it's actually half full.

Anyway you went on to question whether I'm saying it for real by asking me the ultimate question: "Are you attached?"

"No I am not but what's that got to do with my life being bad or good? Yah, my life is good currently, or so far it has been good anyway. At least, I dont get cheated like last year, I still have my job thank God, my parents are happy, my sis doing okay, I have a 5 weddings to do and I'm really looking forward for TLG musical.....perhaps I'll reward myself with a bonus trip at the end of the year... why should I say my life's not good now?"

yup...life is good, and I'm happy that out of my consciousness, I said that FOR REAL :)

bombie {=^o^=}
gratefull for all the food indulgence and the happiness granted for my birthday week that lasted me till now.

btw: you forgot my birthday..... for the first time ever ...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

strange

This week... particularly
I've heard that sentence many many times..
"u look really tired, better go get some rest"

I wasn't feeling that tired actually..
but then....I'm on MC for 2 days now...
new record, just 3 mths into 2009 and I have taken total 3 days MC
while last year, I took just 0.5 day....I felt so bad :P

Strange...
And the worst is this morning.
After plenty of sleep yesterday... I wake up hoping I can go to work..
I was preparing my breakfast when I suddenly felt the world spinning around....
My eye sight getting blur en blur... and tadaaa...
I know that it was symptomps of me going to pass out soon..

So I quickly settled my breakfast preparation
Run to my bed room in 2nd storey...
and sleep my way out...

heh :P... Strange..
words have power
Even when I rejected the MC for today, my doctor said: Well I just give you 2 days MC just in case....okay ?

Somebody pls say " You look very fresh bie... and u loose weight *try my luck*"
and I'll say amen to that....and it shall happen...

bombie {=^o^=}

Sunday, March 15, 2009

still...believing...

In Your presence....
no lies stand still..
scattered...

and I'm broken again....
who am I fooling now ?

Have patience with me.. Father...
For I know You're the only who understand how tough it has been....
I'll welcome Love to flow stronger than ever before...
That my dim ray of light will soon find it's way out of bleakness....

bombie {=^o^=}

Thursday, March 12, 2009

marriage is....

Does the thought of being married ever scare you?
It did to me...
sometimes....it still does...

bombie {=^o^=}

ELG memberz, pls don be disheartened by my post above:)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

1st virtue of love

before I thought of what crossed my mind
in my post : habit of love..

another matter of love crossed my thoughts actually
on why : Love is patience, is firstly quoted in 1 Corinthians 13. ....

Above all,
Why it has to be patience, a virtue I'm beginning to lost...
or perhaps, barely had it from first....

Why not : love is a grace ?
Love is magical, Love is wonderful, Love is awesomeeeee, Love is amazing, Love is great, Love is everlasting, Love is faithful ??

What is patience that it's of that importance ingredients of love ....
I was actually wondering last nite, trying to recall some books I read in the past ...

Thank God the answer is delivered tonight in FA...
haha :) funny how He never fail to answer my out of ordinary question in a rocket speed:P

baiklah, bakal coba gua baca bukunya in 1 week, biar gua inget akan arti cinta stulusnya :P *wakakaka, geli banget dengernya, kayak Suwarto's Cinta Tulus dan Suci... iiiiihhhhh jijay*


bombie {=^o^=}

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

habit to love

Once in a while, aside from my weekends room cleaning up routine, I like to mop my room in the middle of the week.
Just like today.

And this day I realize that actually, it's not that I love to clean up
It's just that I cant stand being in the opposite condition from being clean
which in the end drives me to clean up

Wonder if love works the same way...

Not that we like to love....coz true love hurts as it covers multiple sins
Yet the opposite pathetic condition of not being loved
That drives us to love and hopefully be loved in return

hm...I think that kind of thinking is not very "Christianly religous" though..
Yeah....I hope I long to love not because I am afraid of not being loved in return
I pray it's simply because I love to love as He loves to love me

hm...yah...I wish that my love life is not like my hygiene habit..hehe :)

bombie {=^o^=}

Sunday, March 8, 2009

mix... but not matched

This week mark:
1> The last season of YRC Sunday celebration
2> a very sad week for NTU

Really, mixed up.
But for all... I really am GLAD for everything that happen in YRC Sunday today :)
We have 95 conggregation altogether, we had a wonderful PW session, we had fun, and we had a good beginning of a combined YRC.

THANK YOU FOR THE COLORS, TEARS, MEMORIES, LESSONS YOU HAVE ADDED IN MY LIFE YRC SUNDAY:) LOVE YOU ALWAYS & 4EVA U'RE IN MY HEART:)

Sentosa was... extremely hot... hehe:P very fun though :)

but I ended the nite in tears...
that's not supposed to be flowing from my eyes..
if even I cant take it...
I wonder how...
...............................................................

Your divine intervention..
is all they need
is all the world needs now....

mel {=^o^=}

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

wad's our role ?

everybody dies.
But not everyone dies on the same manner.

The latest one that shock the most:
is the guy by the name: David Hartanto Widjaja, an Indonesian Chinese, final year NTU student, who happen to be graduate of SMAK I.

Stabbing his professor, then cut his wrist and jump to his death later, what's begotten him at that point of time is still questionable. I wish him peace in his final resting.

What hit me is, some of our NTU's youth member know him.
And I'm saddened by the fact that each of us has the power to prevent this from happening....

I know that sad news are all over the news paper these days...Tsuanamis, landslides, earthquakes, bombs.....those are beyond our control

But death news that you know you are somehow somewhat related ...and you could do something to change it....yet...things still happen...

is just a slap in the face...
Wake up Army of God...
for the last days are evil...

bombie {=^o^=}

Monday, March 2, 2009

Your grace

I see now more than ever...
I'm walking on Your sweet grace like I've never before....

ever sufficient, everlating, evermore, forever more.

bombie {=^o^=}

Sunday, March 1, 2009

He's just not that into me

watch it last week

It's a line that I have understand for the longest time.

Yet it takes one guy, one Sex and the City scene, and finally a book.
To make all the ppl
who have comforted girls in love by saying things like as if guys have hidden meaning when they act/ react badly towards the girls feelings for them, when actually the guys, meant exactly what they do
realize what they say to the girls, is wrong.

I've read the book in Uni days. It's not a WOW eye opener. It's just something that confirms me that we shouln't try to say nice things to comfort a girl in love,
when what she needed is a painful crush of a needle called truth, sewn deeply into her heart. Might be painful for a while, but this needle is what keeps the heart from breaking apart in the long term by the sweetness of lies that rottens her heart, stopping it from hoping, wishing, and keeps on believing.

It's just right. Those not into you, are just not worth the time and tears.
Save it for the right one who will really be so much into you, undeniably, undoubtly, unquestionably, unconditionally.
And never ever think you are one of the exceptional, till times prove that you are.

He's (they were) just not that into me. And all is and were fine :)

bombie {=^o^=}