Leaving 2007

10.5 hours before I set foot at Macau...excited :) kind of tired too...
my first trip back to Hongkong after 14 years....and for the first time ever: my first mission trip:)
all da way till Jan 1' 08 we'll be in land of our ancestors.
leaving Singapore.....leaving 2007...

It has been....a MARVELOUS year....
Somewhere in the hecticness of all the outstanding matters in office...
5 PM December 19' 2007...I stop for a moment..
In 10 seconds...all things flashed back before my eyes....
For all that have happened...for all that may happened...
Ups and down Rocketed as far as Heaven and earth...
Roller coster of one's life truly pictured.....

almost....for a second....tears drop from my eyes....
It has really truly seriously been an AMAZING 2007....

This might be my last entry in 2007.
See you in 2008. Merry Christmas and Happy Nu Year all :)
God bless you... Jesus loves you...

He has always been AWESOMELY AMAZINGLY GREAT....hasn't He ?

bombie {=^o^=}
in thankfullness of the colors of 2007...being 26...and never been happier :)

2 random thoughts toss in a blog...salad for your soul...

1st thoughts: Ko Omar's sermong
2nd thoughts: Am I being naive ?

Thanks to Lydia for your blog entry: December 16' 07.

I was superbly sleepy during Ko Omar's sermons today, but I'm mostly awake on the right moment :P... so I am able to still catch few of his and His mesage..........Thank God for that *maap sekalee Ko...ampuni......ini pengakuan dosa namanya...hehehehe*

It is ...scary..living without a dream (Ko mar's sermon: sebuah templakan keras di pipi kiri). To say I'm not one of the person who fall in this cathegory.....will be a lie. Though they always say that they know my long term dream...I doubt they do...as I doubt I myself really know.....specifically....wad on earth am I here for? That FORTE moments.....Wad issit gonna be ? General purpose: I suppose every Christian know wad on earth are they here for....

And even scarier is : the fact that this is not something new that Ko Omar/ other pastor just speak about today. It has been discussed, from Sunday services to FA to daily bread...to anything. The Psalmist says: a man without a vision shall parish. Woo....scary ya ?

Then on prioritising God..sebuah templakan kembali ke sebelah pipi kanan. Hm.. if I fall asleep during sermon...apa ini yah contoh hidup orang yg mengutamakan Tuhan? ....hehehe... Gua yakin jawabannya ga :) lah wong lover of your life is speaking to you through your pastor...and u fall asleep..hm... so yah......no excuses for me falling asleep....I have to get up and rekindle the passion again I know :)

Nah... kl dua itu digabungin....u can say I live my life pretty gambling yah ? Ga ada mimpi...ga terlalu ngutamain Tuhan....wwwooooo.... bahaya bahaya.... Jadi disinilah saya... sadar banget sama kelemahan saya.......I'm not as perfect as what people always picture me to be... The Lord knows it... well !!.. So help me in achieving perfection okay ?...Thank you upfront...

So... wads that got to do with being naive ? That would be the story of me and my moms conversation...seperti biasa... over the phone.... and spt biasa...she's always as negative as she can be... and she questioned my choice of life...on why I'm not pursuing my carreers when opportunities is so wide opened......*especially on money making part*....on how money can help the world goes round....on how money this .. money that.... haih..ngetiknya aja capek ngomongin money...:P udah tiap hari kerja ngomongin hal ini terus :P..

It was a very normal conversation b/w me and my mom.... and forever..I stand in my point of view....on how I do not want to be driven by money...and how much I want her to see how God has blessed me throughout my entire life... and how I really want her to believe that my life...is definitely gonna be so much better than what she can expect it to be.... on God's protection..blessing...love... covering...over my life....and through it all it will be...On stopping to complain and starting to say thanks......

To her..money can buy your health... live longer....live better...
To me... life is christ...and death is a welcoming home to Father's house...

She told me....I'm naive, idelistic, and have not seen the real world out there, on how bad their views can be when they see that you don't have the "wealth"......
I may not know that much but I have come to know how cruel one's life can be .. and I choose not to be affected by how bad the world can be..for wad matters to me... is how God's view over my life....anything else..He'll take care to be in place.....

She said since you're still young.. work yourself hard to achieve a better life.. all relies on your hands and no one elses.......
I told her... my everything is not from my hardwork..not from me at all.....all are just declaration of His love....

The conversation ends with a shock on why Hady won Asian Idol....then we went back to our own TV... I pray hard the day will come... that she may understand how I view a life.....a precious life God has given us......that will be when she understand Christian faith...and the day will come.. * Yang percaya katakan AMIN !!!!!!!!!! ..AMIN BANGET!!!!*

But it is funny to me...I feel I don't really have clear pictures of my dream....that my path is pretty risky to walk on...Pretty uncertain out there.. scary yeah, for it is a really.. seriously ...cruel world out there...........But I stand so strong headed telling her how GREAT GOD has been...and how my life...in my tiny little faith..shall always be good in HIM:) I ask her... to wait and see ....

Hubungan dua hal di atas ? Dalam ketidak jelasan akan impian masa depan gua...and dalam keyakinan akan kebaikan Tuhan yang pasti membawa gua kembali dalam pangkuan kasihNya..sampai Dia benar2 terprioritaskan secara REAL in my life....I will persevere with this Faith and will keep sharing it with whomsoever I'm given a chance

And slowly I know... akan tergambar dengan sendirinya....dreams and visions of mine...not in a day... or a month..it shall be longer... but at least I know.... my dreams are His...and His are mine.....even if it's not specifically be known to me....but step by step...I'm fine enough to live my dream... one day at a time.. :)

Search me again...and seek out my heart o God......in You...our faith will never fails !!

bombie {=^o^=}

oleh2 dari Bandung

Ketika berlalu
semua rasa dalam hidupku
dan amarah yang menggebu
tertuju hanya padamu

Ketika sirna
Kerinduan yang membara dalam dada
dan pedih yang pernah tercipta
dalam semua rasa yang pernah kubina

Ketika pergi
Tinggalkan sisa puing dalam relung hati
Sisakan hanya rajutan memori
dan gulungan kisah yang kumulai sendiri

Tiada lagi
Akan pernah kusesali
Semua yang terjadi melanda diri
dalam hati yang lemah ini

Satu hal yang pasti meluap
Dari lubuk hatiku terucap
Kau Bapaku sungguhlah dasyat
Dalam penyertaanMu yang ketat
Takkan Kaubiarkan sekalipun ku tergeletak
Dalam kubangan lumpur yang sendiri kubuat

Sungguh bersamaMu pastilah kudapat
Kedamaian sejati sepanjang abad

bombie {=^O^=}
looking back....in the midst of Bandung heights....
I'm so relieved I'm free...it's all over now with thee......
and that I'm assured.....He.....always loves me

whose rain issit anyway?

It's raining today....
Perhaps it signifies the sadness of 2 of my friends
who gets their heart broken just again

who have one love so true....
waiting for just a perfect time...
yet time and time again..
walls of circumstances come in between them...

one sure get tired keep on pushing
but getting nowhere in between....
I don exactly know what they feel...
yet surely I saw tears flowin.....

I'll be hurt too..
Thus my tears flow with both of yours...
Till our tears can wipe all the pains apart..
with prayer....everythings gonna be all right...


On another part...
It might be raining cos of the happiness of another 2 of my friends..
whose celebrating a love joint
reciprocal feelings get responded
after being single for almost a decade
he finally found someone....
and I'm too happy to hear it till I cry yet another time....

Which tears the sky falls ? I don noe..
I'm crying for both .... perhaps it did just so....



benernya...mau ngomong banyak banget... kan daku udah diem seminggu ya?
namanya juga cewek..pasti kayak petasan meledak dong ?

but then again....... yak 100.... TIME !!!
1.01 am Dec 10

bobo...

bombie {=^o^=}

So Close

Don look at me anymore
For I am just so close
To a line of giving up my defence
and acknowledge....I'm already yours

Glance at me no more
Each drops of your sights
Zooms me to my line of boundaries
I built to stop me from falling
Freely deeply scaryly
Into your deep turqoise sea

There I'm not sure I may find
Oxygen to keep me alive
Water to wake me arise
and Flowers to make me surprised

No..this battle is not over
Still fighting here...stronger than ever
Fleeing myself from your magnet of illusions
Fact knows what kind of distractions
Your hallucination impacts to my realization

For soon it will come to pass
Where I'll be away from ur presence
Till soon comes our way
View me never another second

for I am.....so close....to that line...

FLEE !!!

*bie - elegant* {=^o^=}

presenting : ELG

Introducing : ELG, a subsidiary of TLG, a child of WWF, related to Kaum Zoe :

ELG itself stands for :
ELEGANT LADIES GATHERING...semenjak tertanggal 23.11.2007 berdirilah organisasi ini secara resmi...

Penasihat Utama : Ci Biena
Chairwoman : Fenny Lo :)
Elegant Memberz : Jojo, Dian, Lydia, Widiya, Lena, Bombie :)

Tujuan utama: menjadikan semua wanita elegant dengan mensharingkan tantangan hidup sehari hari di kalangan wanita professional muda, sukses, dan bahagia tentunya :)hohohohohoho:)

I think we are a bit mad ...or at least we are making ppl mad (contoh ieie) ....Nevertheless, I'll always be thankful for your presence in my life ladies :)... Life is so fun when you are by my side :)

bombie {=^o^=}
a proud member of ELG.....wakakakaka:)

stop wandering and wondering

Can't really concentrate lately...
Yup...I'm weary...
So here's a note from the past, from my "blue book":

_____________________________________
That I would remember His goodness forever
That when I get distracted by too many things around me
I can always remember that He never leaves me

That when I felt meaningless in this world
I may felt honored, touched, entrapped, enchanted for the unfailing love He offers me, given to me, commited to me, has proven to me...many times..and forever more will it be.

That when I'm in confusion..
When things do not happen the way I wish it would be
I will always remember that His way are not mine
And His thoughts are not too

That when human fails me
He remain perfect in His everlasting promise
That when I see myself fell again and again
I can wake up remembering that He who is in me has painted a wonderful plans for my ahead
Even since I was in my mother's womb

This note is....to remind me
That ray of hope from my Jesus is always there...
That my mustard seed of faith can move the mountains in my life
That what written in the bible is indeed...so true

Surely goodness and mercy shall always follow me
Throughout the days of my life

Forever more....remind me of these Lord
When times get tough
When faith falls weak
When heart grows sick
Remind me of your Greatness and everlasting promise

Forever amazed...by only You..
_______________________________
just like 2007 that's going to end soon...
just like my entry : journey closed....
In faith I say....journey will be closed .....anytime really2 soon...

Bombie {=^o^=}

Do you get to choose ?

The world say :
You don't get to choose who you love..before you know.....you have fallen.....
But you sure do have the choices in deciding how to deal with it....

The Bible does not say: You don't get to choose who you love
Yet it does not also say : You get to choose who you love....
But it surely does say: Love your enemies and pray for those who do you harm...
And then everything shall be beautiful in His time..

well...I say:
You get to pray on the kind of characters you would want find in the person you are going to love till the end of your time on this earth....
And you have the choices to decide how you deal with it when you finally find the person...
Above all, when you walk, pray, and believing in His way....everything is definitely beautiful in His time and you get to see that :)

The truth remains to be the truth
Righteous remain to be righteous
No false disguising in right norms




Just came back from D and D 2007
I just feel how much differrent all this has been .... Truly... MUCH !!!!
Missing Ineke, Kiyoko, Sherlyn, Elvida, Ben Choo.....loosing some more soon...
Each journeyed separately... and even some of us are still under 1 umbrella of Citi...still things changed so much...haven't they ? I miss those good old days.....

Bombie {=^o^=}

and again....

and again....
I've heard another story of pain...
in the midst of the season of rain

and again...
it's a story of 2 people in the beginning
join by a 3rd person in processing
all are just chaos in the making
a hell for the 2nd victim's living

Cant you think cant you feel ?
Cant you imagine if it's you in her heels ?
How hurt is she gonna be ?
When she know her man cheat her with thee ?

You say we don't understand your position
Do let us know which part we miss out
Explain to us make us indifferrent
That we may close our eyes to the wrongs you made out

Thank God for me ...all this just another story..
We are just human... always fail to live our life perfectly..
I wont let this story of pain kill me
From having my faith restored daily

Just clear this whole mess my friend...
Run from the fire you've created
Don get burnt inside in the end
No one but you can help yourself escape....

I hate betrayals....

bombie {=^o^=}

Journey: Closed

Time and time again
Stripes every memory that reign
Heal every sickness and pain

And then again
Like every fable that has end
The rose has died before it blooms
Lest time giving her a chance……
Not even to blink her poison…..
With each petal drops and every thorn crops
Each leave falls....this journey….closed

Silently growing in the wilderness of forest
Before spring turns into summer
No one knows which seed it progress
So fragile yet so stubborn

Sometimes it shines sometimes it rhymes
Quietly it seeps into the root of heart like crime
Now and then….and again…..meets time
Ruler of space …owns millions of dime

The adventure of forest takes a lifetime to understand
Where fairies and daisies dancing in hands
Lions and tigers rise to their fame
Even waterfalls and rivers flows to Spain
Every moment of fresh air well kept in a frame
And as each start come with an end
This rainforest is not spared juz like them

Get up and run from your forest my dear
For your rose has stopped spreading its beauty
Thank your fairies for looking after you daily
The thorns are spared from hurting you badly
You are safe throughout this journey
From spring to summer even when it reaches fall

As silent as you enter into this adventure
In dreams and wishes and hopes so tender
As tranquil so leaving this land of fracture
By the secret door your knight has found

Time…and time again….another rose will grow….
Somewhere in the mix of continents
Who shall know ?

Home

Hi

Thank you for visiting my blog. I am away from "internet" from October 26 and will be back by November 10' 2007.

Should you have urgent enquiries, truly apologize but I am not able to help you, as no human/ woman can back my life up when I am away or leaving it all behind.

That's to say: you and I are irreplaceable too in the heart of The Lord of Universe....so walk in His plan in doing His will......that you and I shall not parish but have a life and living in abundantly...

Till then...do take care:
1> Have a Wonderful Worship With Stars this Sunday
2> Have a sumptuous Posh Dinner at one degree fifteen next week "so sad I miss this"
2> Have a great FA during the weeks
4> Perservere in your Studies :)
5> Have an annointed night with Pak Niko...experience His healing :)

I know I am missing lots of things when I'm away....but I'll gain even more with my family stay....Oh Father I pray...that this trip will not go in dismay :)

Thank you for dropping by...and now :

I'M GOING HOME....TO A PLACE WHERE I BELONG * humming*

Yours sincerely,
bombie {=^o^=}
soeboeh October 26' 2007 (26 is.... a great number !!)

Our way to Rome

The good old days never change....so thus the bad ones...

Forever we...will be 3 differrent persons...standing in 3 differrent point of views...trying to head to Rome....

though they say : banyak jalan menuju ke Roma...but which road we choose determine the result...are we getting there on time...in time...out of time...

one protagonist...another antagonist...and a judge of peace...our court session last night has dragged a long time...it bugs me till now...

What do you say judge ? Is justice done ? I know accused never meant to hurt victim....
yet victim has been hurt many times....what accused done ... will bring nothing else but harm.....

The fact that we are one..bounded by our bloodlines...all are just trying to save victim....thinking the best way to reach happiness for the actress...

I prayed it end with consensus...that you may agree with me:
Happiness is not define after we reach Rome...yet in the heart of Rome goers......
For Rome might not always be called our home......and it's not always happily ever after......

I have been in happiness...ever since I see my seed of faith grow
With God overflowing kindness.....I've walked out from the past where pain enthroned....
Please stand by me daily with eagerness....in waiting to view my dreams blow...

I'll promise you...Shining star it will be.... showering brightly on you and me....
What this faith can bring upon thee.....we shall stay here.... juz wait and see :)

To everthing..there's a season, a time for every purpose under heaven
Ecclec 3: 11

bombie {=^o^=}

Where and why do I start ?

Maybe coz I woke up on the wrong side of my bed this morning ? ...But nope...
or maybe age is catching up with me that I finally "dare" myself to do it ?

I don noe...Out of da blue..I juz feel englightened to start this blog. Let loose all my concern....here I am starting :)

Hoping none will find out this blog anytime soon (is that possible in the first place ? I don noe really.. very bad in terms of internet...see how old I am when I start this blog ? hm.... * geleng2 kepala*)

eniwei...here I have started...entry of a journey.....geez :)
Let's see how long will this last :)

Bombie {=^o^=}